[8/27/2002 4:22:35 PM]
okay so tell me it's normal to be having crazy hawaiian withdrawals...cuz i just can't get hawaii out of my system..i swear all i do is listen to all the cd's i bought or burned and reminiscing already about all the things we did there...and now i'm back to the real world...and all i keep telling myself is that...this is so not hawaii..not that i don't love california..i do..i don't think i could imagine myself anywhere else..but just the fact that i got to spend time with friends and just enjoy a little bit of paradise with them...anyone would miss it right? *sigh*..so yesterday marked my countdown until i start working..september 9...the day all my fears about working become a true reality..i dunno..for some reason i hate doing things that i know nothing about..i mean yah..i'm going to be working on traffic stuff..that's what i studied in school right?...but this time it's different...i'll be working-working..maybe that makes no sense..but i dunno..for as long as i can remember i've always been scared to start things that i don't know everything about yet..i don't like not being able to do something...i like feeling as though i know everything i'm doing...not having to constanty depend on asking for help..i guess i'm just too proud...darnit..i promised myself that i would try and let go of that too...hahhaha...too much pride..**note to self: asking for help is good!=P...hahahha...oh well..just something i'll get over eventually...mmmm..you know what else i miss from hawaii..i miss the matsumoto shave ice..best darned shave ice ever..and no i didn't fob out...they call it shave ice..not shaved ice=P...so..to try and quench my lilikoi flavored shave ice craving...me and lou went to tapioca express and got the passion fruit snow ball...yah i know..not the same..but it was pretty good..i think it's better without the boba though...next time...and today i've been reminded ever so nicely....that it's time for me to get a membership to 24-hour fitness..my first job at uci..hahha...so yah...when i start working..that's what i'll do...tone up baby!.woohoo..sounds exciting doesn't it?..okay time to munch on some chocolate macadamia nuts..muy yum!....

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)