There are two sorts of curiosity -- the momentary and the permanent. The momentary is concerned with the odd appearance on the surface of things. The permanent is attracted by the amazing and consecutive life that flows on beneath the surface of things.
-Robert Lynd

man, i hate pop-ups..and having pop-ups when i'm on my computer at works sucks even more! whenever i close my browser i always get an ad that pops up right after..hahha so if a boss person come in and i try to close my browser it's no use..i'm going to get some kind of funky ad following it..therefore i have learned to master the art of alt+tab in a flash..hahah..but yah man, ever since i googled prom hairstyles to get ideas of how to do my sister's hair for prom i've been having this problem..sucks yo! i've dl'd ad-aware, spy-bot, some pop-up killer shredder program..nada..that's what happens when you surf the net at work=(..but i was doing it during lunch so i'm allowed to!!=P

so my dilemma about moving out grows heavier:
pros:
-on my own!! yay!
-i'd get home from work a lot faster
-getting home earlier means being able to do more things (i.e. take my food/photo classes, go to the gym earlier, run my errands, etc...)
-not having to hear the nagging from my parents
-freeeeeeeeeeeeeedom=P

cons:
-paying someone else $$$ to rent a place when i could live at home for free and save up for my own place
-my parents might be lonely in our house
-i might miss the nagging from my parents?? really??

well those are the main issues..i dunno..we'll see

so anyways..woohoo friday is upon us again..i hope dodgeball is funny!! freaking ben stiller cracks me up..oooh and i get to watch miss saigon this weekend..i hope the view is better from the last time i saw it..i remember we saw it in downtown and i felt so far from everything..at least the music was really pretty..i'm always in for good music..i wonder who the lead singer is this time. oh, so i bought this over the weekend..i keep reminding myself that i need a work bag but i've never had a chance to get one..til this past weekend..hehehe..i know it's a lot..well for me it is..so i better put it to good use! for the longest time i've just been carrying my plans/folders/scale/calculator all together going home..such a hassle..so yah, this is my new investment and i love it=P..hahah..makes me feel all professional..hehe too bad i don't act like it though=P

The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it.
-W. M. Lewis

hmm..so i have this dilemma right?..after i graduated, i was suppose to stay in irvine and work in irvine..then this job in l.a. pops up...and i hear from everyone that it's the better choice..so fine..i pick the l.a. job and choose to still want to live in irvine..but then my parents ask me if i could just move home until my little sister graduates hs so that she has someone in the house w/ her..i think it's because me and my older sister were always there at home for each other since we're not so far apart in age..but w/ my little sister, she's 11 years younger than ate and 7 years younger than me..so there's this huge age gap and she was alone at the house w/ my parents while we were out in school..so my parents wanted her to at least have one of us there to be with her while she goes through hs..so after much arguing and stress..i agree and i let my selfishness go..it would be good if i was home with her and it turns out..that i'm glad i got to be home while charv was in school..so 2 years pass..and it's not so bad living at home..

but then my sister graduated like 2 weeks ago..and i know she's still at home til september..but it's kicking in now that when she leaves i'm going to be alone..not that my parents won't be there..but it's different talking to your parents compared to having one of your siblings around..i guess i wouldn't mind living at home by myself so much if i lived in a more urban area..but hel-looo..hahah agoura hills? i'm soooo far from everything=(..i can barely go out on weeknights if there were any happy hours going on at work or with the irvine peoples...cuz i live so far..too much of a hassle..and the commute i have is so draining..i thought i wouldn't move out until i save enough to buy a condo or something..but i know that won't be for like another 5 years..i had this talk w/ boyfriend..the pros and cons of moving out..the big con would be that if i left my parents would be alone in the house..and i'd feel really bad about that..i mean, they've been by themselves before when me & ate were in college and charv was in school at vegas..but since they're getting older i just feel bad..i dunno..and the main pro that got me is that..i'm still young..this is the time in my life where i can do so much with it..and if it means having to pay rent instead of saving for something..then it'd be worth it..because i'd finally be able to "live my life"..corny as it sounds..it made sense..i mean..i keep telling myself..oh i'll take cooking/photo classes once i move out..i'll do this..i'll do that..when i move out..but when the freak is that going to happen if i keep thinking that it's better to buy a place then rent..so yah..that's my dilemma..move out..or stay at home and try to save...ahhhhhhh!!

too much to think about..can't wait for the weekend..father's day..beach..anime!!yeeha!

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
-Frank Herbert

it's funny how it's the little things that we tend to take for granted..yet when it's missing, it can change things instantly..i try to not take things for granted..i'd like to hope that i think clearly in most situations..but no one's ever perfect..dude, i know i'm not..ha!..it's weird how things can snap you into reality faster than you thought possible..i know i'm not making much sense..my mind has been preoccupied lately and i'm just not comprehending things so easily right now..things that i've always had strong opinions about just don't seem so stable anymore..everything seems a blur right now..sorry, random i know..thanx seachell for listening to my retardedness=P.

anyways..it's time to concentrate on the lakers tonight..they need to kick detroit's arse w/ a vengeance..we've got to take this first game to crush their confidence! muahahah..geez, i talk as if it's so easy to win a game..but it's the lakers..c'mon now! gooooo lakers!!!!!

dude..i took my co-workers to roscoe's today..it was so funny..cuz they both ordered chicken & rice..hehehe..it's all about chicken & waffles..mmmmm soooo good..gosh, my mouth's watering just thinking about it again..i'm so weak sauce though..i'm ashamed to admit that i couldn't finish my 'scoes special #2..i usually stick w/ the one piece of chicken/1 waffle..but today my eyes were uber hungry man..i couldn't help it..but it was yuuuuuuuummy! i tried to eat as much as i could=P..and i decided to try their louisiana hot sauce..oh man..i gotta buy me like a 40 oz of that stuff..it was good...i mean i like the gravy itself..but i just wanted to try their hot sauce cuz i like spicy things..i bet they'd make mean buffalo wings..mmmm!

Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.
-H. Jackson Brown Jr.

first and foremost...congratulations to the newly engaged couple--ate & jason..yay finally those nerdios are engaged..dude my sister and her bf have been planning their wedding before they were even engaged..it was so funny..i always had to tease them about it..and on sunday it finally happened..so yay for them=P

congratulations to my little sister on graduating hs!! woohoo..now it's off to being an anteater..zotzot baby!.hahaha..man, i'm still in shock though that she's going to be in college this fall!..i still see her as my little little sister with the cute little pigtails in her hair that loved to stick her tiny fingers up my nose to check if i was really asleep..gross i know..hahah..but yah..how time flies.

happy 25th birthday my elainamaboppers! have a grrrrrreat day and eat some yummy cake for me!=P
aloha kellyjean! good luck in hawaii..and i'll be seeing you in september so make sure our orders are ready=P..hehe..

let's see..what else is going on..i hate getting cramps..i love the harry potter series..the movie this weekend was uber cool!...i finished reading da vinci code last week-very good book..naruto is cool, thanx rex!..dave chapelle is freaking hilarious..and we just finished watching his stand-up that he did back in 2000 (killing them softly??)..that was fuuuunny yo!..ziings has really good kamikaze's..never play poker if a lakers game is on..c'mon lakers!!..i love shopping w/ good sales..thank you ae, old navy & victoria!..chocolate covered gummy bears, chocolate covered cookie dough and those sour belts are soooo good..but bad for me=P..hehe sorry ai, i bit off your white slippers! i'm still looking for the bronze ones in my size..dang!..but they are soooo cute..and man, what's up with the weather?