The difference between 'involvement' and 'commitment' is like an eggs-and-ham breakfast: the chicken was 'involved' - the pig was 'committed.'
-Anon.

so with all the crazy weekends gone by, it's time for things to get back to normal. ha, hopefully. i'm going to try and be more disciplined in the next few weeks, but i'm sooooooo bleh lately. and marathon training starts in november. can i go a full month without running? it would help me though b/c then my evenings would be free to study. we'll see i guess. i know next month is going to be real hectic as it is.

so i saw this and kinda got freaked out about it. i never would have thought that you could be overhydrated during a run. so word to the wise my friends: only in moderation! hehe but i really did feel like i needed more water than what they offered at the nike run on sunday=P. speaking of which..that was was uber fun. haha i never would've thought that i'd enjoy young mc's "bust a move" so much. haha stopping at all the groups was reminiscent. although coolio did look freaking wasted the whole time. but de la will always be coolness=). way to end the run.

so we went to magic on saturday with my cousins. i think the last time lou & i went was when x & de ja vu had opened. this time we were able to ride tatsu!!! that ride was awesome man! even though we had to wait in line for this one, it was so worth it. it felt like skydiving again=). hehe. but for reals, it was crazy dude! especially the first part where they invert you in your seat and you're parallel to the ground. man, i felt like i was flying the whole time! not to mention the yummy french fries, frozen lemonade & funnel cake that you HAVE to get on all magic trips!

is it allergy season or something? i've been blowing my nose like crazy this morning. i'm pretty sure it's not a cold b/c normally i get headaches and junk with it. so yah, i'm hoping for the former because i think i'm almost maxed out on all my sick time for this year=/.

i wonder if i'm wearing my glasses too much? you know how they say we shouldn't wear them like 24/7 because then our eyes will get too dependent on them and make our vision worse? well i think that might be happening to me. because i know before i was able to be at the computer and read the screen clearly. but now when i take off my glasses things look all blurred. and i don't want to squint b/c that makes your eyesight worse too right? grrrrrrrrreat. i just got my eyes checked in may. i hope they're not already getting worse.

so as boyfriend has been experiencing..i've found a new joy in the kidney punch. ha, with boyfriend as my target. i don't really punch punch, just the motion of it is fun. i have NO IDEA why. haha=P. but it's fun to just grab his arm and do the "bam" motion of it. he thinks i'm all weird and gets all jumpy and ticklish when i do it. i think it reminds me of this boxing movie..was it million dollar baby or rocky? i forgot..but where the coach keeps telling him/her to punch them in the side. so yah, if i see you and i happen to do it to you..i'm just being weird=). but it's soooooooooo fun. mmm well except for when cici reminded me how joe did it to rita, but for fun too and she actually fell to the ground. hmm i don't think i could do that..could i?? i kinda wanted to try that out on boyfriend..haha but i don't think he'd appreciate it...

What does not kill me makes me stronger.
-Friedrich Nietzsche

haha man, i think karma caught up to me yesterday=P. so i kept teasing boyfriend how i waited with him to finish the half marathon b/c i wanted to finish together. but that i still had all this energy that i felt like i wanted to sprint the last 2 miles. and how he kept saying he need to drink more during the run and i kept saying, really? but i drank less than you and i'm fine! so yah, all that rubbing it in must've caused bad karma..hehe b/c you'd figure i'd know by now how much fluids my body needed. i guess i didn't want to cramp up w/ all the sugars. so i paid for it on monday b/c i was suffering from dehydration=/. well at least i thought so. i felt like a zombie at work. soooooooo tired, headaches, light-headed, yada yada. so i stayed home yesterday=). felt nice to just unwind and try to relax. i say try because as much as i wanted to sleep in my body doesn't understand how to sleep in anymore..haha boo, i don't think 730 is sleeping in. ah, what happened to the good old days of being able to sleep til like 10 or 11=).

so yah, i am proud of everyone for doing the run on sunday! happy belated birthday winnie!..see we put ourselves through all that just for you! haha. but yeah, good job everyone. and yay boyfriend for perservering and finishing with a good time!!! haha even though my rocky renditions and motivational speeches were not what you wanted to hear at the time. it was pretty cool though running through disneyland, california adventure and angel stadium. seeing the flames they had going on at the starting line. the main street band and everyone cheering you on. all the people dressed up as disney characters doing the run. umm with the exception of the asian guy dressed as tinkerbell. haha. the nike run on sunday should be pretty fun too. c'mon who doesn't want to see vanilla ice? woohoo, and we get to see de la soul. yahoo!

you know, i've always thought of myself as switzerland. hehe if that makes any sense. i wonder if that's always a good way to approach things though.

I wash my hands of those who imagine chattering to be knowledge, silence to be ignorance, and affection to be art.
-Kahlil Gibran

it's only tuesday huh? i feel stressed again. not so much as before, but i still get that feeling that a dark cloud is over me. but only at work. still a blah place to be right now. i'm just hoping that things turn around soon, b/c morale around here sucks these days.

at least i have the weekends to enjoy right? always good to be around your family and friends anyways. kaylena's baptism was this weekend. aww she's soooooooooooo freaking cute. haha too bad she was sleeping during most of the baptism. and man i was so tired that whole day afterwards b/c of the run we did earlier that morning. i think i knocked out for like 3+ hours afterwards. we were suppose to go out again w/ the cousins but i just felt like a zombie the rest of the day. hehe hopefully i'm not like that after the disney half this weekend!

so i had my annual physical yesterday. and somehow the conversation of babies came up w/ my doctor. she asked me how old i'll be this year and i said 27 in november. to which she started lecturing me about how i should start having kids now and we shouldn't wait like her and her husband did in case any difficulties arose. and man, i was just kinda shocked at first. i guess more b/c baby talk has been the issue with my older sister and her husband these days so i didn't think it'd lead back to me. i know that in the future i want to have kids, but i guess i just didn't think that i'd need to have them now. make sense?

i don't know. she asked why not, and first off i said b/c we're not married..duh..hehe and second b/c i still want to get that traveling bug out of me before i really settle down. she said she understood..but does that sound selfish on my part? i mean i know when my mom was my age she already had my sister. is it just different with our generation? where we want to live the whole independent life before starting a family? and plus i know financially we're not ready either. i don't know. i never wanted to think of it as, i have to have one now or else. i always just thought, when it happens it happens. sorry rambling.

hmm so i hate dealing with insurance issues. i wish they were more clear about certain things so that i wouldn't have to complain to them. blah, i don't like getting mean! haha..

Adventure: the pursuit of life.
-Daniel Roy Wiarda

first off, just wanted to wish boyfriend the happiest belated birthday!!! hope you had fun this weekend!!=). and what was so fun? hehe yay we finally went skydiving! i'll post pics that the camera guy took of us later. but it was so awesome!!!!! just the feeling of freefall, i can't describe..it's like..hmm..like whoa? haha, i don't know i just felt like i was flying for those few moments. although my mouth was super dry after b/c the wind sucked out all my saliva. but for some reason i think right when i opened my mouth to scream all the saliva in my mouth flew out or something. b/c when we landed i touched a part of my cheek and there was a wet spot! ha, so must've been the saliva right? yah gross okay fine, but i thought it was funny!

it was crazy though and it just happened so fast. we're up in the plane, the pilot starts ringing some bell and then all of our tandem instructors start saying "10, 10" and tell us to sit on their laps while they strap us in. i'm guessing the 10 was 10,000 feet? b/c we were suppose to jump at 13000. so they open the hatch/door and i see boyfriend (haha who's instructor was way smaller than him that it looked like lou could crush him when he had to sit on him to strap up=P). anyways, yah i see boyfriend jump out and i'm like oh my goooooooosh. then i get tapped by instructor matt "belle, you ready?" i have to squat right at the door, and dude that in itself was crazy. my toes are hanging off the edge of the plane and i'm just looking at all the scenery below, then...whoosh..we jump!

the freefall was uber cool and once the parachute deployed it was all smooth sailing=). just looking at san diego below i was like, ooh a topo map (okay that's the dorky engineer in me). then instructor dude starts spinning us and going side to side screaming yeaaaaaaaaaah. haha and while i did enjoy it b/c this is one of those lifetime experiences..my stomach started jumping. but i didn't tell him to stop, b/c hel-looo when can i ever do this again? and the landing was cool. such a good feeling, especially when you see your friends down below laughing with you about the good times! so yes, i must thank all those who came out to celebrate louie boy's birthday to jump for the adventure, rid the fear of heights & to cheer and enjoy the day. thanks guys, y'all are wonderful!!!! it couldn't have been a better day=). our friends are awesome aren't they?

we also got to see cat and caren later that night at yardhouse..heheh and then they took as to one of the local bars, star bar, aka the "auntie panties" bar..haha. so funny seeing these older filipino lady bartenders. and then of course we had to grace extraordinary dessert with our presence in sd yet again=P. man those desserts are soooo rich, but so good. i still think we all could've shared one and had our fill. but we're all dessert lovers, (with the exception of boyfriend, boo!..haha jk!) so we like to have our own!

so this morning on the way to work me & daddy were exchanging conversation:

dad: so what did you do this weekend?
(i didn't tell my parents i went skydiving b/c i knew they'd be like nooooooo! so i opted to tell them when the pics and video came in)
me: it was good, umm i jumped out of a plane!
dad: oh with the parachute?
me: yeah (thinking, whoa he doesn't mind?)
dad: did you hear about that irwin guy, he died!
(i'm thinking, uhhh i just told you i JUMPED out of a PLANE! and you change subjects so easily? btw, rip mr.irwin, you were one crazy yet passionate guy)
me: yeah that was so sad.
(we get to work and i want to show my dad the skydiving certificate since he doesn't seem to mind)
me: look dad! (all excited now b/c dad's cool about it)
dad: what? you went skydiving!!!
me: umm, yeah i just told you that in the car!
dad: but i just thought you were joking!
me: no way, i wouldn't kid about that. (thinking, uh-oh here comes the lecture)
dad: oh, okay make a copy of this so that i can show your mom.

and i'm just in awe that he was so calm about it. ha, we'll see after work if he's still cool about it=P. so moral of my story is that i should just tell them now when i do something like that and not be scared of the reaction. b/c when i was signing my life away w/ those release forms i did feel guilty that i didn't tell them beforehand. lucky everything turned out alright=)

happy belated birthday again boyfriend..wow 2-7!!