Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.
--Eddie Cantor
hahah wishing y'all a post Merry Christmas!!...woowee this was a hectic yet yummy and family-filled holiday!..and the holidays would've been topped off with a cherry if the lakers had beat those dang cow-bellers!..but it was quite funny clowning on christie's wife whenever the camera zoomed in on her..dude the only time he could score was on the free throw line..did he complete his easy layups?..ha! no!..anyways...touchy subject these lakers are..soooo i will move on!..too much food..too little time..oh my goodness...was my stomach a happy camper these past two days!...and it was fun opening presents..thanx for everything guys..thanx boogerlou for my presents=)..hahha it's funny cuz what i wanted this christmas he wanted last christmas!!!corny i know..ah well!..let's see...although it doesn't feel the same staying up til midnight christmas eve/christmas early morning when you're 23 instead of like 6 years old..the one thing that doesn't change is that good feeling when you're with the family ..but i do wish sometimes that i was that little kid again just running around like crazy counting down til it was midnight and stuffing my face with lumpia while waiting..wearing matching clothes with my sisters and cousins and mobbing the christmas mass all decked out in red..hahah those were the days!..hmm..so here i am at work..waiting for it to be 445 so i can go home..and enjoy these days off til after the new year..the office seems so quiet...i'm guessing everyone was smart and took today off..that's okay..just means a peaceful and relaxing post holiday..oooh and i want to go shopping tomorrow..gotta take advantage with those after christmas sales=)...all right..i should start working..byebyeeeeee=)

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Dreams are the touchstones of our character.
--Henry David Thoreau

wow..on my drive to work this morning..the skyline was just so beautiful..coming from irvine this morning to l.a..i was on the 5S approaching the 101 interchange..and just seeing the downtown skyscrapers against different hues of blue..and a little purple..was just niiiiiiice!!..that's one of the good things about rain..pushes out the yuck..and gives you clean air..along with a dope view of l.a=)..okay so anyways...friday was cool..we watched lord of the rings: the two towers!!!!!!! the movie was gooooood...there were some parts though that were different from the book..but it wasn't bad..i really liked it though...peter jackson did a good job on this one..and woohoo's go out to the elf dude legolas!..wahoo!!..hehhehe=P...i'm excited for the last part of the trilogy..dang one whole year to go!!...let's see..and then saturday lou and i met up with my familia and we ate dim sum in chinatown..very muy yum!...we met my sister's boyfriend's mom and grams..haha it was just a picture fanatic day!!...then we had our christmas dinner and gift exchange with all the buddies...i ended up getting chocolate and a gift card to best buy..thanx gailey gail=)..and so..i put that bad boy to use last night and bought me the love and basketball dvd cuz it's one of my favoritos!...aww..that movie is soooooooooo good!!..i highly recommend it..and plus it has a sentimental meaning that goes with it=)..so yah..and then...yesterday..was lou's family christmas party...a very fun-filled night of christmas laughs..food..lakers...raiders...presents..food...and karaoke-ing..of course..although i was a bit shy on the mic...hmm..is it mic or mike?? dunno..hhahah lou's cuzin was trying to get the two of us to sing beauty and the beast..hahha but dude.the pithc was too high!..couldn't reach it man! good thing the mic/mike wasn't close to me!!.hahah..ah well=P..and then the night was ended with...more food!!mmmm...palabok..mmmm yummy..hahah i'm such a pig!...so yah..my weekend was busy busy!..and now...i'm back to work..woop-dee-doo..it's okay..half day tomorrow...wed. off..thursday work..then off the rest of the week til next thursday!..yee ha grandma this is gonna be a fun week=)...all right..time to enjoy my breakfast bagel and get back to work..laters man!

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Just because everything is different doesn't mean anything has changed.
--Irene Peter

hahhah such a dramatic quote for such a simple problem...ahhhhhhhhhhh i'm having difficulty with my aol account! therefore i've lost my dial-up connection, am forced to use my old telnet connection, and have finally come to realize it's time to install cable modem at my house!..gosh..i never thought i was so dependent on my internet..but coming home from work yesterday and not being able to check my mail or chat with my buddies is a real eye opener..hahha petty problem i know..and hopefully will soon be fixed...til then...please DO NOT e-mail me at my aol account...for now you can send any e-mails to luvm33h831@yahoo.com...thank yah kindly=)...anyways..work is going by so slowly today..could it be because of my enthusiasm for the coming weekend?..hmm tomorrow night me and lou, ahem..lou and i, are finally going to watch lord of the rings..woohoo..legolas!!..heheheh...and then saturday we're meeting my family in chinatown where we'll be eating dim sum with my sister's boyfriend's mom and grams..hahhah..tun tun tunnnnn...meet the family time!..this should be fun...then get to attend christmas parties for the rest of the weekend..should be a fun yet tiring weekend..dang..i can't believe how fast christmas came..i swear it was just thanksgiving like a week ago!..and what the freak is up with the weather..for like the past 3 days i've had frost covering my car every morning..yet the drive up to l.a. and into the parking lot is all sunny...hmm??..at least l.a.'s not so smoggy these days cuz the rain pushed all that gunk out!..i've come to another realization..i'm silly drama!..hahha for some reason i like to make things so dramatized..but yet..it's under such silly circumstances....ah well..yet another one of my schpeels that i'll deal with=)...oooh today for lunch me and my co-workers are going out to this indian buffet for like our holiday outing..should be interesting...i just hope i don't insult anyone if i don't finish all my food..curry?..we'll see how it goes...back to trabajando...laterz skaterz!

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

The pessimist finds difficulty in every opportunity while the optimist finds oppurtunity in every difficulty.
--Anonymous (i forgot who said it..sorry!)

hahha my bathroom at work is so cool..this is the third quote i've posted from it...it's funny..i read the quotes that the office clerk(or at least i think she's the one who does it)..well yah..so i read the quote that's there as i enter the bathroom...and then ponder over it while i'm in the stalls..hahahha...ain't life grand...i wonder if that's why they do it..so that we're not bored in the bathroom=P...so yay...i'm practically finished with my christmas shopping...and it makes shopping so much nicer when the sales people are really nice...occasionally there are those grinches who forget about the spirit of christmas..which i guess is understandable since they're working these long hours over this hectic season...and then there's those nice nice people who no matter how many questions you ask them about a product..are always willing to help out..how cool is that?..okay so back to the bathroom seen..you know what i've noticed?...every morning i make a quick stop to the toilets right?? and for some reason i'm always drawn to the biggest stall..call it habit..call it my comfort zone..but i like my space..anyways..i've noticed that every morning i go..all the other stalls are fresh and never touched..you know..full unused rolls...and the seat is still up, waiting to be used..so when i open the big stall..the seats down...so i'm wondering..does the cleaning lady not clean this stall because it's so popular and she doesn't wanna touch it??(sick i know..hahah)..or is she like me and loves the big stall so much that she uses it before anyone else get's the chance?...(and dude..i get to work early so i'm usually the first one in the bathroom..so i notice this stuff!!)..well i was just wondering..i thought it was kinda funny...all right...enough of the bathroom stories...i could go on forever about them!!...time to get ready...i'm going with lou and ed to dominico's in old town pasadena...anyone care to join??=P...laterz yo!

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family. Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one.
--Jane Howard, "Families"

wowsers...=P..so the weekend for me has finally come to an end..gosh i love these 3-day weekends!..it's such a tease though...knowing that work is only a few hours away is such the weekend killer..boo...so yah..good weekend...went to the getty on saturday..a highly recommended place to go..for those with the artful eye..or even those who just wanna relax by the gardens..nice place to check out whenever you've got the time..sunday was a relaxing day and also got a little bit of christmas shopping in..today was a guitar day..learning the chords..trying to place them into something that sounds like an adam sandler's wedding singer song...and now i just got back from watching my big fat greek wedding...good movie..lotsa laughs...you'll see why i chose the quote for today's blog=)..so yah..and here i am...about to go to bed..missing vacation..missing just hangjng out..ahhhh...all right..short entry..will expand another day..til then...adios amigos.."uppppa"....courtesy of the movie=P...geez..re-reading this post..sounds kinda blehhh...hhahah oh well...uppppa!!!

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't.
--Eleanor Roosevelt

gosh..i have no motivation to work...i think that 4-day vacation really did it for me...but..to brighten up the day..i was in the field for most of my work day with two of my co-workers..hahhaha it totally felt like that feeling of "ditching" school...umm..not that i know or anything=P..cuz i was a good school girl!!!..but anyways..fieldwork today was cool. it was cool..for lunch we checked out pinks..on la brea and melrose for those of you who want to go there to eat..very muy yum..hahah and what was funny was that on our way back to the freeway..we passed by an ethiopian restaurant..i am now a believer of cici and jon's proclamation of ethiopian food..okay okay..so i was a doubting thomas...=P...wow..i'm stuffed..just ate some domishmoes pizza..watching the game..c'mon lakers!!..i believe in you!..and i do agree with the 8th seed theory!..you know what??.so it's december right?...yay holiday loving warm fuzzy feeling season...but..it also means that i'm going to no longer have a uci e-mail account=(..and that my loans are now coming back to haunt me=(..boo!...so onto a brighter note..hump day tomorrow...which means..the weekend's a comin!!!...oh and we get a complimentary holiday breakfast tomorrow morning at the plaze downstairs for all the workers in the building..isn't that cool??..well i think it is..and there's gonna be a jazz band playing the tunes to brighten the morning..so hopefully that makes the day go off with a good start..alrighty..time to see the lakers baby!!...and i'm audi 5000 with a sunroof!! (hahhaha get it?...well for those watchers of the wayan's brothers when they first came out...get it??..you should!!)...

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

The significant problems we face cannot be solved at the same level of thinking we were at when we created them.
--Albert Einstein

don't you just hate how little things can totally ruin a good day..happened to me yesterday..happened to me today..well...it's not so bad..but i'd rather it never happened..oh well..anyways..so yah..i hear from my dad today that i've been summoned for jury duty..and of course i'm in shock..since i've NEVER ever been summoned before..damn..i thought i beat the system some how..it's been 5 summonless years..and now they decide to give me a letter...ahhhh..so yah..i've been summoned as an on call juror sometime in january..i guess they must've sent a billion of these letters out..cuz my dad got summoned and so did lou..guess it's that time of the year huh?..and so it begins..the neverending obstacles and endless situations we face...as an adult...living in the real world..oh..my...goodness..how weird isn't it?..for some reason i'm still in denial sometimes that i'm not a college student..that's normal right?..maybe after a year of working i'll snap out of it..hahahah...so i had a discussion with some friends today about aliens vs. time travel..about which of the two could actually happen..i went for the aliens..seeing as how the whole roswell incident came about..in the end..2 out of the 3 of us came up with the whole matrix kind of idea...sorta..well similar in the fact that there's probably intelligent life forms disguised as humans just watching us and learning about us....trippy but freaky at the same time...anyway..oh how i miss vacation..i hope these 3 weeks til christmas go by as fast as november did...alrighty time to spruce up some of my not yet there gee-tar skills=P...laterz yo!

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

..."thank you for helping me see the brighter side of things."
--johnjohn's request for my hallmarkish quote..hahahha

as this wonderful vacation is coming to an end=(...i realize those which i am most thankful for and am grateful for...sometimes we take the littlest of things for granted..yet when we come across them, those little things can make the biggest difference in the world..i dunno..just a little bit of insight i've gained over this lovely 4-day weekend...so moving on...vegas has been cool..got to spend lots of quality time with the familia, gambled here and there a bit...won a bit...lost a bit..and ended up breaking even..woohoo...caught up on movies that i never got to watch but are now out on dvd..hahaha..went shopping..!!!..not just for myself..geez..i did do some christmas shopping too!=P...learned to appreciate the yumminess of a deep fried turkey..mmm mmm good..i love turkey!!..got my camry fixed so that it runs superfly and even perked it up with some new tires...vroom vroom here i come!...even bought me some vitamins at sam's club..time to take care of my health..oh yah..and i really will start working out now..i promise!!!=P..all in all...pretty much a great fantastico awesome cool weekend..arghhh..i'm soooo not looking forward to work tomorrow...hmm..well at least our morning should be yummy cuz i'm gonna bring in some muffins...oooh yah..word of caution to anyone who uses ARCO gas!! : please do not use this gas during the winter time..even if you're like me and only use it once in awhile...as my cousin noted while he was fixing my car...since it's the winter time gasoline stations tend to put alcohol in they're gas..and ARCO!! has been notorious for putting way too much alcohol..in turn..it screws up your fuel intake and causes serious damage to your car..so please...so that you don't have to go through the mess that i went through this weekend to fix my car...take that piece of advice with you=)..and if you don't..ah well..don't say i didn't warn you!...okee dokey...time to mosey on down to the kitchen to scrounge up some breakfast!!!=)...laters skaters!

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

mmm donuts...mmm chocolate.
--Homer Simpson...okay so sue me if i didn't get it right..but you know the food phrases he says riiight?=P

so yah that's how i felt at our annual pre-thanksgiving dinner..sooo much food...muy yum!!..and it was cool hanging out with old friends again..this weekend was so busy...went to house of blues on friday and yesterday to watch new found glory and dj shadow...which may i add are two very good genre's of music (s.a.t. word that i remember..woohoo aren't i a smarty!!)...let's see..watched 8 mile..ok movie...i liked the freestyles..went to my boss' baby's red egg party..which is a traditional party for the chinese culture to celebrate a newborn baby when he/she is 1 month old..and of course..the thanksgiving dinner..soooo hectic...and sooo tiring..i swear my driving capability was so freakin terrible last night..i have no idea how i found i made my way back...scary driving when you're tired..i know i know..i should never have done it in the first place..i'm only human..we make mistakes..geez...oh...my...gosh..story of the day today..so me and my co-worker were grabbing a quick lunch at tacos mexican and we were eating outside right?..about to finish up the rest of my yummy carne asada burrito when here comes this homeless woman..asking for change..so yah she starts complimenting my co-worker and then i bust out my change to give to her..and so after she comes to get the money...she bends down as i'm cleaning up my mess..and KISSES my shoulder!!!!!!!!...and say jesus loves you..then bends down again..which freaked me out cuz for some reason i felt like she was going to bite my shoulder or something...remember..i'm only human..and i've lived in bubbled worlds my whole life..so excuse me if i sound a bit exaggerated on my thoughts!!..so i'm just like HEYYYYY UHHH...and then my co-worker turns around..cuz he was throwing away his trash..and he was like...HEY HEY (smart people we are only able to say like one word!)...and then after that..the homeless chick leaves..so yah..you could say i felt a bit violated..that was soooooo ahhhhh...maybe i'm trippin..over-reacting..whatever..all i know is that ahhhh..i don't even wanna think about it anymore...so yah..on to a brighter note...yay thanksgiving holidays coming up soon...of course i'll be heading to vegas to spend with the familia over there..that should be cool...a little family reunion...all right..i go now..i wanna tell my sister the freaky lunch story...=P...g'nite y'alls...

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

"Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by TV shows
Nobody likes you when your 23
And you still act like you're in Freshman year
I never want to act my age
What's my age again?"
--Blink 182

hahah just a few lyrics from the song that's been ringing in my ears for like the past 2 weeks and has been dying to come out!!!..so yah..today..i..am...officially..23..*sigh*.. which i'm sure isn't so bad...another year's gone by..another year to look forward too right?..i wonder why blink chose 23...must've been a significant year..so that does that mean this is going to be a whopper of a year for me?..grrrreat..hehehe..hmmm..so friday was cool..went to karl strauss brewery to eat and then headed out to corner office to groove a bit=)...got to chill with the irvine folk again..seeing old faces and remembering all the good times..how i miss my friends..they're cool!!!..so...i'd say it was a good night..except for the fact that i yacked at the end of it..=(..boo..hahhah...ahh well...last night was cool too...louie boy took me to the block where we ate at mr.wolfgang puck's..then watched harry potter=)...and then to signal hill..with a nice view of the stars and the city lights..and where he surprised me with a gee-tar!!!=)...soooo sweet!..and so..my project for this whole day has been trying to tune this dang thing...ahhhh..it's making me crazy..anyone with a musical ear..please help this poor poor child with her pretty gee-tar!!..all righties..i wanna try and get this thing figured out before i sleep tonight..hasta luego yo!

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

lil excerpts taken from the book "Quarter-life
Crisis"

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when
you stop going along with the crowd and start
realizing that there are a lot of things about
yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You
start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be
in a year or two, but then get scared because you
barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and
that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were
so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you
have ever met and the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones. What you
do not realize is that they are realizing that too
and are not really cold or catty or mean or
insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what
you thought you would be doing or maybe you are
looking for one and realizing that you are going to
have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of
socializing with the same people on a constant
basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't
so great after all. You are beginning to understand
yourself and what you want and do not want.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging a bit
more than usual because suddenly you realize that
you have certain boundaries in your life and add
things to your list of what is acceptable and what
is not.

You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry
with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone
and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the
enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear
life but soon realize that the past is drifting
further and further away and there is nothing to do
but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you
loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed
and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough
to get to know better. You love someone but maybe
love someone else too and cannot figure out why you
are doing this because you are not a bad person.

You go through the same emotions and questions over
and over and talk with your friends about the same
topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and
making a life for yourself and while winning the
race would be great, right now you'd just like to be
a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading
this relates to it. We are in our best of times and
our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to
figure this whole thing out.


=====
SING as if no one is listening
DANCE as if no one is watching
LOVE as if you've never been hurt
LIVE as if there is no tomorrow...

just a forward i got from my buddy cat...i remember i used to always put up that last quote on the board at our columbia apartment...ahhh those days were fun..so from the excerpt of this book..does that mean i'm dwelling on the past too much?...oh well who cares??...but i think i may just go out and buy this book..cuz it's true...being in the young adult stage is hard..having to make decisions about work/finances/adjusting to home...it's really hard...ahh well...time to go...another day..another night...

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Write a wise saying and your name will live forever
--Anonymous

isn't it cool how if you keep saying something over and over..or i guess just something so wow..that you could be remembered by that for-ever??hmm..i wonder what i could say that would be a trademark and i have all the rights to that saying..hahahh food for thought..anyways...got to chill in l.a. for cici's b-day..pretty cool..especially knowing that we were exclusive people able to sit at the "reserved" tables...dang we're sooo v.i.p.!!!=P..and the fact that we somehow or another...finished our three wise men..hahha that shietz is nasty!...something i am not looking forward to this friday..and may i remind those who have the thoughts of getting me faded on friday with this: i am recovering from having the stomach flu last tuesday...i do not like the feeling of bowing down to the porcelain gods....hahahhaa...so please..have pity on this low tolerance child=)...ahhhhhhhhhh 23....ahhhhhhhhhh 23....couldn't we all just stay 21??..dangit...i am 21..no questions..geez..now i understand how my older sister felt whenever she turned a year older after 21..i would always tease her about how she's getting old and i'm still young..and she used to warn me...that once you hit 21..your birthdays just keep coming...and that no matter how old we get..what matters is how we feel inside..i think i struck a nerve with her on that one..hahhaha..so yah..now i'm feeling like the old one..and now it's my younger sister's turn to tease me...what goes around comes around eh?..geez..this sucks...hmmm..the joys of being a young adult...whoa..me?? an adult??..that's funny...=P

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Laughter is the shortest distance between two people.
--Victor Borge

ahhh...good times...yah that should sum up the weekend..i went up north with lou and his mom to visit his family up north..it was cool..although i did watch the ring cuz his cuzin hooked us up to get into the theater.ahhhh scary scary!..well from the peeking view i had from looking through my fingers..hhahaha..anyways..afterwards we met up with jenn and ryan and walked around downtown berkeley...that was cool..pretty different..but i think working in the city has opened my eyes to the real world and it's pretty interesting my friend...okay that was random..so yah..after we were in berkeley lou's cuzin took us to haight (sp??) street and me, lou, andre, jenn, and ryan got buzzed off of some yummy tasting sangria...*note* when serving sangria..make sure that it has been chilled and mixed with oranges and apples..which gives it that oh so yummy flavor making the sangria go down soooo smooth!!..hahaha..so thank you jenn and ryan for giving us the official san francisco initiation at the Cha-Cha-Cha restaurant and making the night full of good times..ahahah and to top it off..they had some yummy calamari..afterwards we just chilled at the bar with some cool freestylin' by our bay area rappers..ahahhah=P...so yah...then sunday was a restful day of watching football..catching up on sleep..and kickin it with lou's relatives...i'd say this weekend was fun...the only downfall was having to wake up this morning and going to work=(...ahhhh...oh well..at least it's a 3-day weekend for the next two weekends too come..woohoo...party all the time..party all the tiiiiime=)!!!...check yah later yo!

When the character of a man is not clear to you, look at his friends.
--Japanese Proverb

woohoo..finally..time to catch up on some random thoughts...right now i feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders..yet i know that won't be fully true until december...ahhhhhh..as long as i don't have to think about equations and mumbo jumbo like that, then i'm cool with it...anyways..so yah...after the wonderful test...i headed out to vegas with all the buddies..it was cool..although i was dead tired..it was fun being able to kick it with everyone again..hahah and we went to my most memorable birthday place..the brewery at monte carlo..hahaah...it's much better not being so half-assed drunk and yacking=P..and we packed about 20 people in an aladdin hotel...whoa...but it was fun...i got to rest and relax on monday..i got a haircut and re-highlighted my hair..oh my gosh!!...i've never spent so much before..but my good ol' buddy tinz reassured me that it's okay that we splurge on ourselves every once in awhile..so okay..i don't feel so bad..only a little...=P...geez..so yah..i come home today and find a letter from uci saying that i owe $25 to the senior gift fund!!!..what the *bleep blop bloop* i say...dangit that little twerp who called on the night of p-grad told me that they'd just mail an info letter to me..and being the idiot i am..i didn't notice what he was doing til tinz told me to hang up..so i hang up thinking i signed up for nothing..but the damage had already been done...hmmm..maybe it'll be okay if i just ignore it?..but i feel so bad..the whole letter was thanking me for the donation..ahhhh i have such a guilty conscience..but i think this time i'm not giving in!!!!...so work was okay today...i spent like the last 2 hours on the web...i had the worst headache from looking at all those numbers and excel files..so yah...it was time for a good work break=)..you know..i got 5 free dvd's in the mail today..although they were like movies from 2 years ago...i'm still shocked that i got them...hmm...everything has a catch..so i'm kinda skeptical about these ones..even though the only thing in writing that came with it says that they're free and i can join some warner video thing if i want to and get more dvd's...okay so anyways..last night was a bit of an eye opener for me in all my naivety about stuff...and that's all i'm gonna say about that..as long as things are good=)...okay hasta manana crocodile..

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
--Alexander Graham Bell

ahhh this is one of my most favoritest of quotes..yet for some reason..there are times where i just can't get past that closed door...i try and i try...but i dunno..it's like..the closer i come to that opened door..the one with all the possibilities..all the new beginnings...i get drawn back to peak into that closed door..in curiousity for all those unanswered, irking questions...and what is that famous saying..curiousity killed the cat?..i guess you could say that i've come to understand that cat very well..i wish that i wasn't so dang naive in understanding things...but i need to be understood for my actions..if they go away without notice or any acknowledgement..knowing me..they're bound to pop up again..and that is not a pretty sight..gosh..so drama i know..but hey..we all go through it some time..i just wish i could be given some sort of reassurance that i have no reason to look back at that faded door..so in earnst of all my drama-ness...i'm trying to understand certain things myself..maybe this way things will somehow take care of themselves...whether this works or not..i have no idea..anyways..enough of my nonsense..so yah..another week of work..this is going to be one long stress-filled week...after saturday it wil be all over!...at least i'm hoping and praying it will be..and then i celebrate and go to vegas afterwards...woohoo! although this little gambling expenditure will not add to me getting rid of my debt..hopefully it'll brighten up the crazy week i'm gonna have..this weekend was cool...although it started out a bit rough..i think it smoothed out along the way=)..i went with lou to his lola's 90th birthday yesterday..it was fun..heheh we got to swing again...ahhh swing...where it all began=)..that is a memory i'll never forget...yay..okay time to pick up my dad and litlle sister...laters man..

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Better to understand a little than to misunderstand a lot.
--Anonymous

Doing easily what others find difficult is talent; doing what is impossible for talent is genius.
--Henri-Frederic Amiel

why must our professions be dictated by stupid tests??....test after test after test..that's how it's gonna be from now on if i want to move up in this world..and silly me...thinking that i can just bust my ass in school and land me a job...and that was it...hahahh yah right....how naive i was huh?...the working world doesn't stop to think about who you are and what you can do..it's more a matter of..what do you have to offer and the more credentials..the better..i guess that's how things it is right?..we'll see how that goes...i dunno...if i had it my way..i'd stay where i was and just enjoy the life...but no...things always seem to get harder and harder as we get older...why can't life be as simple as before..no cares in the world..anyways...me and lou...oh excuse me...lou and I...hahah dang english grammar!!..we watched brown sugar on saturday..it was pretty cool..but i think i prefer love and basketball over this one...we tried to find out where the mxpx concert was too..but couldn't find it=(..instead...we're gonna watch new found glory at the house of blues next month..woohoo...i think it'll be pretty dope...i watched save ferris at h.o.b with lou before and the atmosphere was cool...everyone's just there to have a good time..jumpin' around...yay i'm excited!!...so okay..after this month..i'll finally be able to do what i've been lagging on...i can finally sign up for the gym..i can buy a gee-tar..heheh...although the drums are dope too...i think i'll try out with something smaller then work my way up...we all know my musical talent isn't so hot..yet!=P...and then maybe save up for a few trips here and there...that'll be nice...til then..all i can do it wait and wonder...ahhhhhh!!..laters skaters!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

-"The Road Not Taken" - by Robert Frost

ahhh..one of my most favoritest poems...i remember analyzing it in high school...and i was just like..oh my gosh..i actually understand what this one means!!..hahhah...i took that as a personal compliment and have liked this poem ever since...i dunno..it's just so true i guess...with everything that's been going on in my crazy life..i'm happy right now...and this is a result of all the decisions i've ever made..be it good or bad...so yah..random post today...time to get to work...ahhhh work!!...ugh!...enjoy!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

A wise man sees as much as he ought, not as much as he can.
--Michel de Montaigne

About the time we can make ends meet, somebody moves the ends.
--Herbert Hoover

two quotes for the price of one today..hahah i'm just making up for not writing yesterday...i was sooo dead tired that i missed the beginning of friends=(...you know..just when i thought i'd be able to start lowering my debt to the only credit card i own..i learn that i have a much bigger fee to pay for every month..which i don't mind at all..but just puts my hopes of buying a car further and further away..*sigh*...i was really hoping to buy my car by january...we'll see..i mean..you never know right?..so okay...i'm here at work..basically the only person in my department that's here..and i have finished all my work today..soooo i have time to write a bit today=)..gosh..i started blowing my nose this morning..i hope i don't get sick..i really need all the time i can get now to review for my stupid test!...geez..just 2 more hours to go..don't u hate when you forget to bring something that you know later on you'll need?..like my whole hot chocolate deal the day before..now i wish i brought my review packets to work so that i can study...but oh well..i forgot as usual...so my boss might be going into labor today (oh yah..that's one of the reasons i'm by myself here)...and she said that the pains she was having were NOT contractions..that contractions are like 1000x worse than what she was feeling earlier...oh gosh..i don't even wanna imagine the pain she's gonna have to go through..my mom was in labor with me for 24 hours!..how'd she do it..see you guys out there..women are just amazing people aren't we?. =P..of course!!..if you don't agree with me..than i dare you to say what your thinking right now to your mom!..then you'll agree with me..hehheh..so tomorrow there's going to be a little suare (pronounce swar-ay)..haha if i spelled it right..at the rattan house...yay..i like when we all see each other..it's cool to have that feeling of comfort.. knowing that during the college life we all became a family..through all the drama..the nonsense..we all had good times together!..dang..could you picture us when we get older..and at the family parties..ahhaha..that's a trip dude...all right..enough mushiness..i might start tearing at work..hahhah...time to surf the web...laterz yo!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

It takes both sunshine and rain to make a rainbow.
--anonymous

what is up with the weather today?...so on my way out to work today i stare at a box of hot chocolate that i have..u know the costco kind..and i'm debating whether or not i should bring some to work..i decide not to..thinking that eventually it'll get hot..or that the office won't be too cold..okay so i was wrong and i start to crave hot cocoa..so i go to the nearby cafeteria thingy...and low and behold..they sell the same exact hot chocolate that i have at home..so..thinking that the chocolate's as cheap as zot 'n go's..i only bring coins...hmm..it turns out that it costs $1.62!!!..hahaha luckily my dad was with me..to show me where to go..and i bummed a buck off of him..hahaha..and so...after all the fuss..i ended up putting too much hot water and my chocolate was too watery!!!!..=(...*note to self: bring my own chocolate, tea, coffee, etc...!!!...so today was a pretty chill day..fitting the weather..it was a real lazy day...the days where you just want to stay in bed and lie in your warm comforter all day and maybe even read a bit of harry potter..or whatever book tickles your pickle...ahhhh the good 'ol days...i used to do that instead of going to class..now that isn't so easy to do anymore...how sad...ah well...let's see..i also got to go out in the field today..drove down with a co-worker to pacific palisades...cruising on pch..in the lovely city car=)..hahah but it was cool...pretty chillaxin' of a day..i like that word!...so okay..how come whenever you meet an older filipino woman she always has the urge to say "i have a son...you should go out" or something along those lines....i think it's kinda funny..speaking of funny things...okay guys out there..if one of your women co-workers has a top on that may reveal more than it should, even if by accident, would you openly stare and give it that quick glance??..i was just wondering...wanting to know if that was a normal thing for guys..which i'm guessing it is...just curiouso..that's all...okay..time to get to studying...darnit!!...hasta manana...

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Never get angry. Never make a threat. Reason with people.
--Mario Puzo

Holding on to anger, resentment and hurt only gives you tense muscles, a headache and a sore jaw from clenching your teeth. Forgiveness gives you back the laughter and the lightness in your life.
--Joan Lunden

Anger is a signal, and one worth listening to.
--Harriet Lerner

hmm...could there be a theme going along with these quotes???..well at least for today's there is...i like quotations..you could find a quote on just about anything...and today..it just so happens to be on the subject of "anger"..hahaha...so which do you hold true to?..for me..i'll take all three..i think my anger/rationale/hastiness...come in steps...i say how i feel..and then sooner or later i'll cool off..and then i remember everything i've said..sometimes i wish i could take back what i've said..while other times i'm glad that i finally let it out...otherwise i think i'd just burst..which i'm sure would not be a pretty site..some people view anger as a bad thing...and i see how they could come up to that conclusion..but i guess for others it's just a way to let it all out...make sense?..i dunno..well enough about that..i think i'd rather stick to those jack handey quotes..at least i could go back and read those quotes...and just laugh..i like those ones much much better...so yay..back to another day's work tomorrow..i really can't grasp the concept that i'm going to have to work every day for the rest of my life..how do our parents do it?...i guess eventually it just becomes so routine that eventually it all makes sense..so lou got a truck this weekend..it's niiiiiiiiice..i like it...and i love the new car smell..oh excuse me..the new truck smell=)...everything's just so..new..i think i like riding in big cars..you get the chance to look at the little people below you..hahha..and a truck is powerful..i wanna be able to feel power in my car..but i don't think camry's are built that way=P...so okay..time to take ed's dog for a pee...laters man..

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Whenever I see an old lady slip and fall on a wet sidewalk, my first instinct is to laugh. But then I think, what if I was an ant, and she fell on me. Then it wouldn't seem quite so funny.
--Jack Handey Deep Thoughts

noo of course i wouldn't laugh if an old lady fell!!..i just thought the ant part was funny=P..sooooooooo i have about 2 and a half hours of work left...woohoo then a 3-day weekend baby!!!...yess...uhhh so can u tell i'm excited?..hahhah=P...but not too excited to drive in traffic on my way to irvine tonight..i hate traffic...yet my job title is "transportation engineering associate"...ironic huh?..but...i'm here to serve the public with traffic SIGNAL TIMING!!!!!!!..not traffic on the freeway..not traffic on the surface streets..hahah so i have no way to solve any of those problems..and please don't blame your traffic problems on me..for i am just a servant to the public..=(.. here to help you run all those greens...=)..and give you that feeling of yay..like when you drive down harvard and get all those greens...okay..enough about traffic talk..i hear about it 40 hours a week..that's like...1/4 of my whole week seeing all traffic plans...now it's time for some r&r..and maybe a 'lil bit of sake-bombing tonight..yesss! that's fun..me gusto mucho una cerveza caliente con una cerveza frio...hmm..i don't think i described sake-bombs to nicely there...ahhh well..okay..i should finish up my work..hasta la vista peoples!!=)

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Many of you are feeling sorry for this lamp. *pause* But you are KEERRRAZZY! Lamps do not have feelings!! Besides, the new one is much better.
--Swedish man (at least i think he is) from the recent IKEA commercials

hahahahahah...hahahhah....hahhahaha i love that commercial!!!...cracks me up whenever i see it...now they have another commercial where this dude says....keeerrazzy AGAIN!!!..hahahaha!..yah know...crazy with his funky accent! if you guys haven't seen it yet..you will crack up til your tummy hurts..or at least i do! it's funny like that volkswagon commercial where that guy leaps into the air to push away a shopping cart that's suppose to hit his car..hahahahah...so yah..today at lunch..got to hit up roscoe's chicken and waffles on pico and la brea....mmm yummy..that was my first time there..so of course..i opt for the first timer special..#13, the carol c special...mmm...but of course i end up getting the ever so wonderful food coma afterwards!..grrrreat..words of advice.if you haven't checked that place out..do!!...so, remember the walk i said i had around my building that one day?..and i realized i'm in a totally different environment right?...that was the up side of working in l.a., all the cool new things i can explore..yet to every up..there has to be a down right?...and i saw it today, on our way back home from lunch...going down olive street..under the freeway bridge..and the boxes that lay beneath...housing who knows how many...it's so sad to see...i mean...i've lived in such a sheltered life in this bubble of a community...and when i see things like this..i just can't believe it..makes me sad=(..hmm..okay i don't wanna be a gloomer on this night...but that's life right?...change of topics...dude after work i slept forever!!!...i think all my hours are catching up to me..but man that nap felt soooo good!...all right...time to go watch all the season premiers tonight...dang tv for making sooo many shows to choose from!!!!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.
--Soren Kierkegaard

Woohoo no traffic on the way home...that's a first!...makes my day a bit brighter not having to be stuck in a car for like 1/8 of my day every day!!...so today at work i got to go out onto the field and do some measuring...dang it was freaking hot up in there!..and then we went to lunch at islands...and i got my first medium-well burger..ewww...yuck..i thought medium well was practically well done...was i wrong...ewww..okay i'm being over-dramatic..but i like my meat cooked..so please..next time i feel the urge to try something new..make sure it's fully cooked for me yah?...=P..you know what irked me a lot today at work...i noticed that guys seem to back check the work done by a girl..yet if it was done by a guy co-worker...than things are all good...why is that? please..someone explain that to me...it's like..i work my ass of in school..only to be treated as though i don't know any better..hmm..or maybe i'm just being insecure for working in a predominantly male environment? i even got told by someone that i'll never make as much as my counterpart!!!...whatta way to boost someone's confidence with their first job huh?..so is this insecurity?..i dunno..you tell me...that reminds me..i think i'm gonna listen to that women basher on 97.1 tomorrow...people can be real jerk-offs sometimes!..maybe someday i'll understand the male mind...til then..who knows what's going on in there!..i think my all girls school attitude is kicking in huh?...ah well..geez it's sooooo hot today!..it was suppose to be like 108 over in the valley...well if i look at it in a positive way..it's like my own personal sauna..so my little sister is out learning how to drive right now with my dad...gosh...i can't believe how old she's gotten...time just flies by man...and soon i'll be 23...ahhhh..i'd like to stay 21 for-ev-er!!!....all right...need to get a cool drink to cool me down..laterz yo!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

I know a place
Ain't nobody cryin'
Ain't nobody worried
Ain't no smilin' faces
Mmm, no no
Lyin' to the races
Help me, come on, come on
Somebody, help me now
(I'll take you there)

--The Staple Singers

hahahh okay so maybe you don't recognize the song..but we just got back from watching barber shop..and this was the last song they played...and i liked it..had a nice lil upbeat sound to it, kind of an old school song..so for all you old skool lovin' cats..i dedicate this song to you=)..."i'll take you there.."...and now..they've used the song for a gap commercial...whewee..what's the world coming to?..maybe this song'll make a come back..you know..like how the seventees brought back bell bottoms?..okay maybe that's just me...anyways..so go watch barber shop..pretty good movie..like a more than meets the eye kinda movie!..so it's sunday already...which means i have work the next day=(...gosh darnit...oh yah..and for an update on my lotto stance...as you can see..i didn't win!..out of 5 quick picks...i only got ONE number picked!..no worries though..that's only the second lotto i've bought in my life...i still got time to win!!!..you know during my lunch break on friday..i decided to get a little bit of fresh air..cuz all day in my little cubby makes belle a bored buddy!..kay i'm retarded..anyways...so i went out for a walk..and after being intimidated by all the freakin tall buildings in l.a..i decided to just walk around my building=)...so in my short little walk..i realized how different of an environment i now belong to...it's the city life baby!..but yah..that won't actually hit me until i finally move to l.a...so with that being said..i think i'll go ponder on how i'll be making that happen...til next time...adios!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams
--Eleanor Roosevelt.

I remember seeing that quote in like the 6th grade..i use to have those little cards that had quotes on them..and this was one of them...so when you need inspirational motivation ..just remember this quote...yay tomorrow's friday!..can't wait for the weekend..i never realized how much i used to take them for granted...i guess being stuck in the office 5 days a week does that to a person huh?...so anyways...today's topic of lunch?...strip clubs and some radio show on 97.1...apparently there's some dude who comes on and just rags on women...whaaaat???..so of course...me being the good all girl high school graduate will put my women in lit. class to use and argue with the guy (in my car of course..=P)...as i listen to the nonsense he has to say tomorrow...so if you guys have heard him before..lemme know what it's like..i thought it'd be like the "man show" cuz i think that's pretty funny..but apparently this dude is just a crude mofo!...geez..what's the world coming to...don't you just hate annoying people who get on your nerves so easily?..yah me too..!!!...okay...gosh..i'm boring today..oh well...i'm a bit tired..so until next time my friends...laterz skaterz....

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Turn that frown =( upside down =)!!!!!!!!!!
--one of those famous sayings y'know?? (but i added the smileys..woohoo!)

Just a bit of simple advice that was taken into deep context tonight...yah i guess it makes a real big difference to have a smile on your face than to not...make sense?...i mean it's always nice to see someone smiling...especially if you know that person..makes you feel good inside...kay random thought..so today for lunch me and a couple of the co-workers..including some of the head honchos at work went to this place called Luminaria...the view's cool..it's right on the top of a mountain and overlooks the freeways..ahahah...but all in all..the place was cool...i love wednesdays...i never understood before why they called it a hump-day...and when i finally got it..i was like..ohhhh...i get it!..all late..as usual...but yah..wednesdays are cool..cuz it lets me know that i got only 2 more days of work til i get to relax..and see my boogalou=)..woohoo...and oh gosh...i have become one of those people i always tease...a business card freak..heheheh....i got excited when i saw the print out of what it would look like...and yay i get to give them out...i used to say that you know you're old when you start exchanging business cards with your friends...well i guess i've officially crossed that boundary..so now..i can just laugh at myself..ha..ha..okay..that's not as funny as teasing other people about it=P...geez..i just read this over..and i've said cool 3 times..i really like that word....it's so...u guessed it...COOL!!!...have you ever been so bored that you counted how many times people would say "ummm..." during oral presentations...hahah pretty funny...as if i'm one to talk..i always do that!..okay dokay...that's all folks...and steeling the title from boyz II men..have a COOLyhighharmony of a night y'alls!!!....

-aloha and mahalo...=)

It doesn't matter how long it takes getting there, the point is having a destination.
--Eudora Welty

Nice quote huh?...i see it everyday when i visit the comfort room=)...i guess it's suppose to be a cheerer upper?...i dunno...i liked it..it just seemed to keep playing over in my head...no matter what we do...eventually we'll get to where we're meant to be...cliche? maybe...but in my case..i'll take whatever i can to adjust..i guess i'm not really taking this whole moving back home thing too well..i mean it's not bad..it's just i feel so out of the loop..it's like...i just observe things now..things are different..and i dunno...okay i'm just rambling..works getting better..i've finally started something productive...i went from folding plans to determining the time given to someone crossing the street when the flashing don't walk hand is up...sounds interesting doesn't it?..sure it does (???)..hahahh...yah that's what i thought when i first got this job...totally different from what i've been accustomed to..but hey..we all learn to adjust eventually right?...right..so..i spent my lunch today discussing the "men are from mars, women are from venus" concept with one of my co-workers today..while he tried to explain the guys point of view on things..i tried my best to explain us ladies!...yet for some reason..we still saw things the way we wanted to..dang guys!..i wonder when that day will come when each sex will be able to fully comprehend the way the other's mind works...wouldn't that be such an epiphany for all of us in relationships...imagine..would things be better or worse?...i guess until then...we'll never know...as of now...i'm just as confused as any girl on the mindset of the guy!...someone please explain!!!..laterz yo!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Smile, it's free therapy.

Dance like there's nobody watching, work like you
don't need the money, love like you've never been
hurt.
--Taken from an e-mail forward=)....gotta love 'em!

Well i figure i should put up two quotes since i've been missing my daily entries lately...so this weekend was fun...travelled down to irvine...did a vegas turnaround in which i lost all of the $40 i gambled with..hahah...but next time for ryan's birthday i'm gonna be playing all the tables with them...i hope..maybe i should just stick with my slots and the blackjack tables huh?..cuz i learned in hawaii...don't try and be like the boys..you might hurt yourself!!..don't you just hate when the first card the dealer gives you is like a 2 or a 3?..i think i've gotten like two blackjacks in my whole gambling career!..that'll change soon enough!!...oh dang...i wonder if i won the lotto!..i finally bought me a lotto ticket on the way to vegas..i'll tell you all if i won or not next time..heheh..hmmm..yesterday i studied at the cool new cerritos library!! woohoo..exciting right?..and now i'm sitting at home on my computer on my DAY OFF!!...which will soon be a day of r & r ...and studying some time today..studying makes me tired..and me not being such a high fan of coffee makes it hard to stay a wake...geez..this feels like school all over again!..dang review class!!..question: how far is too far to argue with your parents?..just a thought that's been popping in my mind since i left for irvine...i know our parents are there always looking out for us..so is it wrong to argue your side once in a while?..i dunno...just wondering..let's see...i'm gonna search all my boxed up stuff and look for things that i can put up in my cubicle...so far i have two pictures from the luau..i want to have a nice lived in cubby that i can enjoy and to make the work day go by a bit faster..you know what's funny?..on fridays my section is just us 3 girls at work cuz all the guys take fridays off..and on mondays the office is full of guys cuz the girls take mondays off..hahah i just thought that was kinda odd...and funny..i'm starting to understand now why when i was still a student, everyone said to stay in school as long as possible...cuz once you start working..that's it..so now that i'm working..i'm really starting to miss the college life..that's how things always end up..you never now how much you'll miss something 'til it's gone i guess...or looking on the brighter side..maybe it just means that with this huge turning point in my life...new and great things are bound to happen...i think i like the latter of the two.. (don't you like the word latter?...such a nifty word!)..so there..it's said...new and great things are bound to happen for us college graduates..woohoo...can't wait!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Live long and prosper.
--Star Trek

No i'm not a trekky....i'm just tired of my slow modem...and i didn't feel like looking up a quote...why not just use one that pops in your head?..so that's what i did...oh how i miss my cable modem..i think that's what i'll get on my first paycheck...yay..oh man...that'll be fun wouldn't it?...so yah...tomorrow will be my last day of my first week of officially working for the city of l.a....and then i get a weekend and monday to relax...yess!...dang..i don't think i appreciated my bummy days as much as i should have...so...in these past four working days of mine..what have i learned?...let's see..1) that i am the only girl that was hired out of the 18 or so people that got hired for l.a.d.o.t (los angeles department of transportation in case you were wondering=P), 2) always remember the faces and NAMES of the head honchos...give 'em a REAL smile and ALWAYS say hello, 3) appreciate those greens you get at all the lights....geez..do you know how much time and effort goes into that just to make the public happy?, 4) that there's a control system underground at city hall that is sooooo cool....for those of you who used to watch the jetson's...remember how george could see all the flying cars go by everywhere at his work?...that's what this place looks like...it's dope!, 5) almost everyone i work with is really cool and laid back, 6) appreciate the speed of your computers at home...and the quiet keyboard, 7) you can take city cars to lunch and park in the meters for free!! hahah cuz ladot owns them all!...whoa cool (hmm..or maybe it's just me who finds that amusing), 8) that somehow...training feels like i'm in college again in the lecture halls..only this time..the lecture hall is about half the size of my bedroom!!!, 9) that i can no longer stay out late on a weekday cuz i need my sleep =( ..., 10) that i don't get paid for about a month!, 11) that what you learn in college doesn't really matter...work is such a whole new learning environment, 12) there are some benefits of having daddy work with me=), 13) ...gosh i can go on forever i think on this one...and it's only been four days..hahahah what a concept!...so i'll stop with those little tidbits of my working knowledge...you know what was funny?..we had a bbq lunch today..and the co-worker who cooked all the food...looked and sounded just like "chef" from south park...funny huh?...he's a chef...looks and talks like chef...hmmm???..okay nevermind...so umm..my cubicle's kinda next to my boss's..it's cool..cuz i don't face him...and he's pretty cool..i'm kinda scared though...cuz a lot of the people working in my division, including my boss, are uci alumni...(they say our division is a conspiracy to hire all uci people..hehehh...zot..zot baby!)...so since those people are alumni, they know what i SHOULD know...argggghh....well...everyone told me that what we learn is new...so i should be okay...i hope i'll be okay...so now my countdown is like this...only 17 hours 2 minutes and 40 seconds til the weekend!!! woohoo!!=)

-aloha and mahalo...=)

Emotional sickness is avoiding reality at any cost. Emotional health is facing reality at any cost.
--M. Scott Peck

so here it is...i have officially crossed over into reality...my last escape was on the way to work this morning...i tried to relax myself and not get nervous about the whole first day thing..so of course..i play the lovely melodies of hawaii...you know ..the peaceful soothing traditional songs...and i dunno..maybe i'm pms'ing or something..but i just got really emotional..it was hitting me..i can't call irvine my home anymore..because it's not..as of yesterday..i can't call myself a college student anymore..because i graduated...and i can't say i'm a lazy bum anymore..cuz when 7 o'clock came around this morning..that status disappeared at that very moment...and all the while i'm in the car..this is what i'm thinking...and i guess it was just to overwhelming...so to save face in front of my dad while we go to work..i try to change the cd..cuz it's just ahhhh...so i do..and my dad wants me to play the cd still...i think he likes the guitar/ukelele parts..soo....what can yah do..i dunno..i think i'm just retarded and need to get over this all already..and i'm not talking about the hawaii withdrawals..i'm over that...i just need to realize that things change...not for the worse necessarily..and no matter how much i wish things were like the old days...they can't be...i think i need a crazy "doc" to build me a time machine..and when times like this come around...send me back baby...cuz i'm ready...wouldn't that be nice?...yah i know i'm not alone on this one!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

You only live once, but if you work it right, once is enough.
--Joe Lewis

hmm..so i think i need to figure out this html tag junk so that i can make this thing pretty and all..oh well..so yah..today officially marks the last day of BUMMY me=(..how sad...after the weekend...hi-ho hi-ho it's off to work i go..i hope the day goes well and great hi-ho hi-ho hi-ho...oh how i wish that would happen..well i talked to the boss man yesterday and he seemed pretty laid back..i just feel bad cuz he said that i'm the last one of my team to be reporting to work..and so..now that i'm there..all the new employees can have the tour of the company and meet all the other head peoples...and then on tuesday we get a pizza lunch..yah so i feel kinda bad that they had to wait for me and all..but it's not like they said i had to come in earlier..they gave me options..i mean c'mon..i just graduated from college..such a relief that i won't be living in engineering gateway anymore...so i deserve a break right?..hahah..of course..anyone in my position would have done the same thing and milk his/her vacation for as long as they could...so i shouldn't feel guilty then..=P..*sigh*..2 days 4 hours 44 minutes and 15 seconds left...i know i know...i keep counting down...but i can't help it...friends is such a funny show...genius whoever came up with the idea...same goes for she-ra, voltron, and transformers...more than meets the eyes...all i can say is..genius..pure genius...

-aloha and mahalo,,,belle=)

Life is what happens to you while you're working for your future.
--Unknown

i can already feel the working life kick in..and i'm not even working yet...weird huh?...let's see..if my countdown is right..only 3 days 9 hours 21 minutes and 45 seconds of the bum life exist in my world...grrrrreat....and already i feel like i'm working..only because i just found out that i'm going to have a load on my shoulders to deal with once i start working...and so now...i'm not so excited about getting paid as i thought i was..i forgot about all the loans and debts i'm going to have to pay off once i start working..ehhh...i guess it was going to happen sooner or later..in my case..it seems like sooner....hel-lo lotto how come i'm not winning?...oops...maybe it would help if i started to buy some lotto tickets...i should start doing that soon=P...i'm such in a rut right now...gosh and i was in such a brighter mood earlier...you know..as much as i love talking to mommy and daddy on their check-up calls on me...i do not miss the fact that i am constantly reminded on how to start my working career..do this..do that..i know they're just looking out for me...but i can only take so much of the criticisms...okay calm down...this is just they're weird way of showing me how happy they are for me..but couldn't it be done in a nicer way...yah so maybe i'm acting like a baby..but after 5 years of being gone from home...okay..no more talking about that mumbo jumbo...there's other things going on that i should concentrate on...yay my new addition to this blog worked..so i'm not so web-incompetent as i thought i would be...i knew i shouldv'e listened to my lab t.a. for ics 1p and done my own webpage freshman year...instead my friend from class basically did my webpage...but hey...i did put on my own links=)..i remember i linked it to the lakers site...and then to robert horry=)..woohoo..and i think i linked it to sanrio also..oh man...hahaha..those were the days..so don't say i didn't try in that class..i did...that class just wasn't what i had expected it to be...so anyways..i think my louie boy had umm a nice birthday...*note to self: no more gorilla farts and three wise men for him!!..hahaha....boy was that a funny sight though....happy birthday for like the billionth time though=)...so i got a message from one of my new bosses yesterday...he said my 9/80 schedule would be fine..and that i'd probable be getting next monday off..but uh-oh..i needed wednesdays off...i left a message for him explaining my situation..and i have yet to hear from him...i guess it's okay if i don't get wednesday's off...hahah..but just a word of caution on those wednesdays when i have to drive down to irvine through rush hour traffic...beware..i may be in an ugly mood....don't say i didn't warn you..hahahh=P...i think i can handle it...my parents i think are still iffy about me doing that..but being the hard-headed person i am..i convinced them that i'll be fine and could take the drive..boy i hope i'm right!..i think i need to start changing my sleeping habits..cuz as of now..i wake up at like 11-12..and on monday..i'm gonna have to get up at 5..yes..in the morning...oh my goodness i say...but..that's life right?..oh how i love becoming a grown up...welcome to my world=)

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Have you ever observed that we pay much more attention to a wise passage when it is quoted than when we read it in the original author?
--Philip G. Hamerton

-i like famous quotes..so i'll be leaving them here and there...isn't it lovely?=)

maaaan...i hate when i delete something by accident...it totally makes me loose my train of thought!!...so anyways..i've been sitting at this computer for like the past 2 hours trying to find out how i can add things to this lovely 'ol site of mine...i'll find out soon whether or not my new addition to this baby works...yummy...if ever there's a sweets craving...try trolli sour brite crawler eggs...muy yum they are...maybe not the best thing to be eating while i'm sick..but oh well..6 days 8 hours 47 minutes and 45 seconds til work...and yet..i haven't heard from the boss man..hmmm..could they be telling me something that i don't know?..i'll just have to wait and see i guess...taco tuesday today..woohoo...get to hang out with the buddies again..i think i'm going to be really sad leaving irvine..i dunno..i guess i always thought that after college i'd be staying down here and working and stuff..but things change...and instead i'm heading for home for a little while..do i sound like i complain a lot?...i think i do and i just don't realize it...i have this bad tendency of remembering things that i shouldn't and grudging against them..am i alone on that one or what?...for some reason i like to pick apart what's already happened...and analyze the situation...as many times as i've gotten in trouble for this..i can't stop..just certain things bother me...and i can't forget them...maybe some day i'll get over it...you know....re-reading what i've just wrote..i've noticed something...i jump from subject to subject..hahhaha...my english teacher in high school told me that that was a bad habit of mine..whenever i wrote..i never fully explained one topic..i always jumped to the next one...oh well..as long as i can understand what i'm writing..then it all makes sense...doesn't it?...it's been soooo hot lately...what's going on here...and there was even an earthquake last night...weird how some of us are so used to feeling the aftershocks and mini-quakes..compared to those who have never felt one...i guess we just forget sometimes the magnitude of those suckers and what they can actually do...or maybe we just don't want to think the unthinkable...i know i don't....gosh..that's not such a nice thing to talk about..let's see..when are all the good movies going to come out?...nothing really to watch in the theaters anymore...c'mon hollywood..where u at buddy?...entertain us!..okay..let's see if my new addtion has posted....

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

ahhhh....on the road to recovery....don't you just hate it when your nose is all stuffy..and then at the worst possible moment..it starts running..eghhh..yah that's how i felt when me and lou..excuse me...lou and i went out to eat with his parents today for dinner...after a yummy bowl of miso soup..my nose starts to run...hahhah quite a funny experience..sorta...so anyways yah..if you guys ever head out to cerritos anytime soon..check out picnic garden on pioneer...well actually i think lou said they might have changed their name to just garden..but yah..it's this yummy korean restaurant where you get to cook your own food..pretty tight place...but make sure your tummy's are empty..cuz it's an all-you-can-eat buffet man...mmm..sarap..hahhaha...don't yah just love those trick birthday candles?..hahah i do..well except when they're for me..but give 'em to someone else and it's a pretty funny sight...7 days til ehhh...i can't even say it...7 days 1 hour 50 minutes and 40 seconds til i become a full fledged worker for the city of los angeles...the city of angels..yessss!!...i sure will miss the private office i would have gotten if i stayed at my intern...instead..i get a cubby..woohoo..bust out the champagne..i'm moving on up in this world..oh yes i am...i think i sound a bet delirious tonight..too much medicine...hehehheh...you know what i have a bad habit of?..ruining my own surprises..i dunno..for some reason..i love finding things out...i know i know..i spoil the surprise of it..but it's soooo fun trying to find out what the surprise is...awwww....*on a side note*..ohhh a just saw the cutest doggie....a shitzu..his name is gizmo...whatta cutie patootie..*...i think i want to get a dog when i get older...ha...since i'm already 22..what consists of being "older"...to my little 16-year old sister..i'm old already=(..but to my older 27-year old sister...i'm still a young-un, yay i like that one better..=)..gosh...how's it gonna be living back at home again..i keep wondering that...i dunno how long i can last..i figure..every weekend i'll probably be heading down to irvine or something..and who nows..if i change my work schedule i might be able to get a day off every week...fridays or mondays...we'll see how that goes though...i'm guessing tomorrow morning i'll be getting a call from the head honcho of my department tomorrow...and we'll be discussing my schedule...sounds like fun yah?..of course...hip-hop sided with the musical tracks of raindrops on roses...hmm??..sounds pretty dope if yah ask me...

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

oh how i hate being sick..!!..it gets me all groggy..and tired...and weak...and the biggest baby!!=P...what i really can't stand is when i'm eating something yummy..i can't even taste it cuz my sinuses are so clogged that yah..i can't taste my food..sucks to be sick..just when i thought i was all better and had my case of the flu for the summer season all over and done with...ta-da..back again comes the flu bug..ehhhhh...okay so i should stop wallowing in my self-pity now..since it isn't helping in getting me better..ahhh..i can't write today...toooooo tired...i go beddy bye now......zzzz...zzzz...
-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

hmm...lesson for the day...never assume things..you might just catch your foot in your mouth and feel like an ass in the end...=P....gosh...and besides making an ass of myself in front of the bank teller...she was still toooo nice to me..don't you just love customer service?..it's a killer..3 years at the bookstore customer service and i loved having oppurtunities like the teller had on me today...a customer thinking that they have the upper hand and complaining...and in the end..it ends up being the fault of the customer..for a teeny weeny oversight..and to top it off...the teller lady was still nice to me after my nonsense=P..hahahhah...okay so i'm just making excuses for myself today..it's done..over with...anyways...labor day weekend's here..and i have no idea what to do..guess we'll just wing it...how come time goes by extremely slowly when you look forward to something..yet..when it's something your dreading..time just flies by sooo quickly...take for example...work...my countdown to work has been flying by..arrghh..only one more week of freedom..i know i know..i keep complaining..i guess it's not so much of the fact that i'll be working..but more of the fact that i'm scared to work..i'm starting out on my own..well actually...my daddy will be there=P..but 2 floors down from me...but still..i feel like i'm gonna be the only new one there..only because i had so much vacation time since i got offered the job and the other people who got hired prolly already started...that's a part of life i guess..i start a new job that freaks me out..but hey lifes goes on right?...basically yah..

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

wow...so people actually read this thing huh?...so yah..i was reminded today that i did not make a post yesterday..mi mal everybody..as i was stuck in a workshop last night...got to go to a yummy bbq at my long lost friends' apartment=)..and watched "signs" last night...so you see..there was just no time...well maybe..and i just got to dang lazy to make one...muhahah...okay enough..anyways..."signs"..hmmm...pretty suspenseful movie...as much as i still jumped and covered my eyes while peeking through my fingers during the movie..i did enjoy it...makes you wonder...does everything that happens to us in this world happen for a reason?...to some..yah of course..to others...pure chance...i for one think that all things happen for a reason..i mean..take last night...me, kel, and lil jay take this workshop at occ right?..and jay was driving us there..we were at a stop light..and once it turned green we were off..at that same exact moment..some stupid white car coming from the opposite direction goes flying right passed us...dude..it was red for them for how many seconds too!!...now luckily to jay's quick reflexes..he slammed the brake and prevented that stupid mofo from running us over...moral of the story?...if we left maybe just a few seconds earlier from kel's place..who knows what coulda happened. but it all happened for some strange reason right? ...so....ALWAYS make sure the intersection is clear before you go..and NEVER ever run a red light.yah i know..that's like one of the first things we learn outta drivers ed..but apparently not everyone remembers those rules...gosh..did that make sense at all??..hahahha oh well...so... today was a very chillaxin' day...got to tour target, fry's, best buy..man...what more could you ask for...got to bond with the buddies...*sigh* i'm gonna miss all this...10 more days til i'm on the 9-hours a day lockdown..sounds exciting doesn't it?..it's okay...at least i can chill with my little sister and continue my quest for the ultimate toned tummy...yup that's right..i said i'd work out once i started work right?..so that's what i'm gonna do..oh yah..and in between..i'll study for my test=)..damn...how can i go from 3 months of doing practically nothing...the total bum status...to working every..single...day...grrrreat...i guess i'm gonna have to right?...can't i just win the lotto and not have to worry about anything?..imagine that..winning the lotto..i wonder if it changes a person...hmm..well..if it was meant to be that i'll win the lotto..then it was meant to be..no arguments here=P....
-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

[8/27/2002 4:22:35 PM]
okay so tell me it's normal to be having crazy hawaiian withdrawals...cuz i just can't get hawaii out of my system..i swear all i do is listen to all the cd's i bought or burned and reminiscing already about all the things we did there...and now i'm back to the real world...and all i keep telling myself is that...this is so not hawaii..not that i don't love california..i do..i don't think i could imagine myself anywhere else..but just the fact that i got to spend time with friends and just enjoy a little bit of paradise with them...anyone would miss it right? *sigh*..so yesterday marked my countdown until i start working..september 9...the day all my fears about working become a true reality..i dunno..for some reason i hate doing things that i know nothing about..i mean yah..i'm going to be working on traffic stuff..that's what i studied in school right?...but this time it's different...i'll be working-working..maybe that makes no sense..but i dunno..for as long as i can remember i've always been scared to start things that i don't know everything about yet..i don't like not being able to do something...i like feeling as though i know everything i'm doing...not having to constanty depend on asking for help..i guess i'm just too proud...darnit..i promised myself that i would try and let go of that too...hahhaha...too much pride..**note to self: asking for help is good!=P...hahahha...oh well..just something i'll get over eventually...mmmm..you know what else i miss from hawaii..i miss the matsumoto shave ice..best darned shave ice ever..and no i didn't fob out...they call it shave ice..not shaved ice=P...so..to try and quench my lilikoi flavored shave ice craving...me and lou went to tapioca express and got the passion fruit snow ball...yah i know..not the same..but it was pretty good..i think it's better without the boba though...next time...and today i've been reminded ever so nicely....that it's time for me to get a membership to 24-hour fitness..my first job at uci..hahha...so yah...when i start working..that's what i'll do...tone up baby!.woohoo..sounds exciting doesn't it?..okay time to munch on some chocolate macadamia nuts..muy yum!....

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

okay...so here goes..weird to be posting this online instead of in my nice journal i have..but since computers are the wave of the future..why not let my mind become a part of it too..okay yah whatever that means...i wonder who comes up with this blog stuff..pretty nifty idea whoever you are...i've decided to have this blogger thingy on account that my boogalou says its a good thing to have...time for me to vent and let all the hidden thoughts in my mind out into the open...and to just learn about me i guess..so here goes..my first official entry...lemme see if it works...be back=)
-aloha and mahalo...belle=)