When the character of a man is not clear to you, look at his friends.
--Japanese Proverb

woohoo..finally..time to catch up on some random thoughts...right now i feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders..yet i know that won't be fully true until december...ahhhhhh..as long as i don't have to think about equations and mumbo jumbo like that, then i'm cool with it...anyways..so yah...after the wonderful test...i headed out to vegas with all the buddies..it was cool..although i was dead tired..it was fun being able to kick it with everyone again..hahah and we went to my most memorable birthday place..the brewery at monte carlo..hahaah...it's much better not being so half-assed drunk and yacking=P..and we packed about 20 people in an aladdin hotel...whoa...but it was fun...i got to rest and relax on monday..i got a haircut and re-highlighted my hair..oh my gosh!!...i've never spent so much before..but my good ol' buddy tinz reassured me that it's okay that we splurge on ourselves every once in awhile..so okay..i don't feel so bad..only a little...=P...geez..so yah..i come home today and find a letter from uci saying that i owe $25 to the senior gift fund!!!..what the *bleep blop bloop* i say...dangit that little twerp who called on the night of p-grad told me that they'd just mail an info letter to me..and being the idiot i am..i didn't notice what he was doing til tinz told me to hang up..so i hang up thinking i signed up for nothing..but the damage had already been done...hmmm..maybe it'll be okay if i just ignore it?..but i feel so bad..the whole letter was thanking me for the donation..ahhhh i have such a guilty conscience..but i think this time i'm not giving in!!!!...so work was okay today...i spent like the last 2 hours on the web...i had the worst headache from looking at all those numbers and excel files..so yah...it was time for a good work break=)..you know..i got 5 free dvd's in the mail today..although they were like movies from 2 years ago...i'm still shocked that i got them...hmm...everything has a catch..so i'm kinda skeptical about these ones..even though the only thing in writing that came with it says that they're free and i can join some warner video thing if i want to and get more dvd's...okay so anyways..last night was a bit of an eye opener for me in all my naivety about stuff...and that's all i'm gonna say about that..as long as things are good=)...okay hasta manana crocodile..

--aloha and mahalo...belle=)

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
--Alexander Graham Bell

ahhh this is one of my most favoritest of quotes..yet for some reason..there are times where i just can't get past that closed door...i try and i try...but i dunno..it's like..the closer i come to that opened door..the one with all the possibilities..all the new beginnings...i get drawn back to peak into that closed door..in curiousity for all those unanswered, irking questions...and what is that famous saying..curiousity killed the cat?..i guess you could say that i've come to understand that cat very well..i wish that i wasn't so dang naive in understanding things...but i need to be understood for my actions..if they go away without notice or any acknowledgement..knowing me..they're bound to pop up again..and that is not a pretty sight..gosh..so drama i know..but hey..we all go through it some time..i just wish i could be given some sort of reassurance that i have no reason to look back at that faded door..so in earnst of all my drama-ness...i'm trying to understand certain things myself..maybe this way things will somehow take care of themselves...whether this works or not..i have no idea..anyways..enough of my nonsense..so yah..another week of work..this is going to be one long stress-filled week...after saturday it wil be all over!...at least i'm hoping and praying it will be..and then i celebrate and go to vegas afterwards...woohoo! although this little gambling expenditure will not add to me getting rid of my debt..hopefully it'll brighten up the crazy week i'm gonna have..this weekend was cool...although it started out a bit rough..i think it smoothed out along the way=)..i went with lou to his lola's 90th birthday yesterday..it was fun..heheh we got to swing again...ahhh swing...where it all began=)..that is a memory i'll never forget...yay..okay time to pick up my dad and litlle sister...laters man..

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Better to understand a little than to misunderstand a lot.
--Anonymous

Doing easily what others find difficult is talent; doing what is impossible for talent is genius.
--Henri-Frederic Amiel

why must our professions be dictated by stupid tests??....test after test after test..that's how it's gonna be from now on if i want to move up in this world..and silly me...thinking that i can just bust my ass in school and land me a job...and that was it...hahahh yah right....how naive i was huh?...the working world doesn't stop to think about who you are and what you can do..it's more a matter of..what do you have to offer and the more credentials..the better..i guess that's how things it is right?..we'll see how that goes...i dunno...if i had it my way..i'd stay where i was and just enjoy the life...but no...things always seem to get harder and harder as we get older...why can't life be as simple as before..no cares in the world..anyways...me and lou...oh excuse me...lou and I...hahah dang english grammar!!..we watched brown sugar on saturday..it was pretty cool..but i think i prefer love and basketball over this one...we tried to find out where the mxpx concert was too..but couldn't find it=(..instead...we're gonna watch new found glory at the house of blues next month..woohoo...i think it'll be pretty dope...i watched save ferris at h.o.b with lou before and the atmosphere was cool...everyone's just there to have a good time..jumpin' around...yay i'm excited!!...so okay..after this month..i'll finally be able to do what i've been lagging on...i can finally sign up for the gym..i can buy a gee-tar..heheh...although the drums are dope too...i think i'll try out with something smaller then work my way up...we all know my musical talent isn't so hot..yet!=P...and then maybe save up for a few trips here and there...that'll be nice...til then..all i can do it wait and wonder...ahhhhhh!!..laters skaters!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

-"The Road Not Taken" - by Robert Frost

ahhh..one of my most favoritest poems...i remember analyzing it in high school...and i was just like..oh my gosh..i actually understand what this one means!!..hahhah...i took that as a personal compliment and have liked this poem ever since...i dunno..it's just so true i guess...with everything that's been going on in my crazy life..i'm happy right now...and this is a result of all the decisions i've ever made..be it good or bad...so yah..random post today...time to get to work...ahhhh work!!...ugh!...enjoy!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

A wise man sees as much as he ought, not as much as he can.
--Michel de Montaigne

About the time we can make ends meet, somebody moves the ends.
--Herbert Hoover

two quotes for the price of one today..hahah i'm just making up for not writing yesterday...i was sooo dead tired that i missed the beginning of friends=(...you know..just when i thought i'd be able to start lowering my debt to the only credit card i own..i learn that i have a much bigger fee to pay for every month..which i don't mind at all..but just puts my hopes of buying a car further and further away..*sigh*...i was really hoping to buy my car by january...we'll see..i mean..you never know right?..so okay...i'm here at work..basically the only person in my department that's here..and i have finished all my work today..soooo i have time to write a bit today=)..gosh..i started blowing my nose this morning..i hope i don't get sick..i really need all the time i can get now to review for my stupid test!...geez..just 2 more hours to go..don't u hate when you forget to bring something that you know later on you'll need?..like my whole hot chocolate deal the day before..now i wish i brought my review packets to work so that i can study...but oh well..i forgot as usual...so my boss might be going into labor today (oh yah..that's one of the reasons i'm by myself here)...and she said that the pains she was having were NOT contractions..that contractions are like 1000x worse than what she was feeling earlier...oh gosh..i don't even wanna imagine the pain she's gonna have to go through..my mom was in labor with me for 24 hours!..how'd she do it..see you guys out there..women are just amazing people aren't we?. =P..of course!!..if you don't agree with me..than i dare you to say what your thinking right now to your mom!..then you'll agree with me..hehheh..so tomorrow there's going to be a little suare (pronounce swar-ay)..haha if i spelled it right..at the rattan house...yay..i like when we all see each other..it's cool to have that feeling of comfort.. knowing that during the college life we all became a family..through all the drama..the nonsense..we all had good times together!..dang..could you picture us when we get older..and at the family parties..ahhaha..that's a trip dude...all right..enough mushiness..i might start tearing at work..hahhah...time to surf the web...laterz yo!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)

It takes both sunshine and rain to make a rainbow.
--anonymous

what is up with the weather today?...so on my way out to work today i stare at a box of hot chocolate that i have..u know the costco kind..and i'm debating whether or not i should bring some to work..i decide not to..thinking that eventually it'll get hot..or that the office won't be too cold..okay so i was wrong and i start to crave hot cocoa..so i go to the nearby cafeteria thingy...and low and behold..they sell the same exact hot chocolate that i have at home..so..thinking that the chocolate's as cheap as zot 'n go's..i only bring coins...hmm..it turns out that it costs $1.62!!!..hahaha luckily my dad was with me..to show me where to go..and i bummed a buck off of him..hahaha..and so...after all the fuss..i ended up putting too much hot water and my chocolate was too watery!!!!..=(...*note to self: bring my own chocolate, tea, coffee, etc...!!!...so today was a pretty chill day..fitting the weather..it was a real lazy day...the days where you just want to stay in bed and lie in your warm comforter all day and maybe even read a bit of harry potter..or whatever book tickles your pickle...ahhhh the good 'ol days...i used to do that instead of going to class..now that isn't so easy to do anymore...how sad...ah well...let's see..i also got to go out in the field today..drove down with a co-worker to pacific palisades...cruising on pch..in the lovely city car=)..hahah but it was cool...pretty chillaxin' of a day..i like that word!...so okay..how come whenever you meet an older filipino woman she always has the urge to say "i have a son...you should go out" or something along those lines....i think it's kinda funny..speaking of funny things...okay guys out there..if one of your women co-workers has a top on that may reveal more than it should, even if by accident, would you openly stare and give it that quick glance??..i was just wondering...wanting to know if that was a normal thing for guys..which i'm guessing it is...just curiouso..that's all...okay..time to get to studying...darnit!!...hasta manana...

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)