Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly.
-Langston Hughes

doesn't langston sound like such a smart person name? ah well to me it does..i remember when i was watching the real world philly and there was a langdon, and i was like, oh smart name too..but nah i think i like langston better..hehe..okay as an aside, i learned from anne marie and cicely that i talk all the time with ...'s which are known as ellipses..never knew the name..hahha okay so i talk and talk and don't split my paragraphs as much as i should..ehhhhh..=)....

see just for you guys..split my looooooooooooooong phrases=P

so anyways..last night we had our annual girlie christmas dinner/gift exchange..will post pics when i get them developed..yah yah developed..be quiet..i love my dad's old school camera!..lots of laughs and food at our apt...mmmm..always good to have chinese food when you haven't had it for such a long time..even better eating it while watching some sex and the city..and so while i'm still confused as to tinz's description of me being like carrie/miranda...well more confusion on the miranda:

tinz: belle, she's like a mix of carrie and miranda.
me: miranda? but she's like buuuuuuuuuuuutch!
tinz: no!!!!!!!!!...cuz you're not too girly girly like carrie.
me: heeeeeeeeey!
tinz: hehe no i mean, like miranda likes sports and she's all competitive.
me: heeeeeeeeeeeeey! hahahah heeeeeeeeeeeey!

hahah freaking tinz...it was still a good night as always..aww i miss those girls!..almost the complete set...but at least we got to see andree on friday....anne marie cracks the heck out of me with her driving stories..heheh... oh okay, funny moment...a little vulgar but funny=P...we were watching the episode where the guy miranda is with wants her to talk dirty while they have sex..so we started talking about using dick/cock in a sentence..would you rather say "he's such a dick" or "he's such a cock!" almost all of us went with the former..tinz the latter..hahahah...i dunno, okay well maybe you had to be there but it was freaking hilarious..we shall do dinner and more sex and the city again! sooner than later please=)!!!!!

so christmas is done..seemed like a blur..but then it'll leave me anticipating next year's christmas even more..so tiring driving back and forth to vegas..but well worth it..and it should be again, since we're going there for new year's too..get to hang out with the familia again..too bad ate & jason can't make it this weekend..boo..again..always next year=)...man..our 3 secret santa gift exchanges were freaking soooo funny...hahah..and now i can't wait to go shopping at the outlets..hehe...i won't go crazy don't worry boyfriend..but i need clothes..and shoes..and bags..haha...uh-oh!..mmm and probably the last weekend to fully stuff myself with all the yummy food that'll be at the house..then it's back to being disciplined for the marathon training..at least i hope=P.

man so i loooooooooooove listening to "seasons of love" and "light my candle" from the rent soundtrack..serious..just hearing the opening intro to both songs just gives a happy feeling right away..i like to listen to them on my drive home from work..that and another track that boyfriend burned for me..very good relax and stress free songs..which i always welcome..ehhh time for some work..

Fall seven times, stand up eight.
-Japanese Proverb

why is it that i felt like a bah humbug last night?..hahah geeeeeeeeeeez...i feel so overwhelmed right now..like i have so much i have to do before tomorrow night and i'm no where near finishing...boo..sucks to have this feeling..especially since i'm always like..yaaaay it's christmas time..but this time around it just feels so rushed..and i didn't even have time to send out my yearly christmas cards..i ALWAYS send out cards=(...sorry guys..hahah i know how much you look forward to getting my cards in the mail each year...heheh...i think i just hate the feeling of being rushed and not prepared..i'm anal like that..i like things to be done already so that i won't have to worry about it later..i like it when i don't get stressed b/c then things will just get messed up..so i'm hoping that won't happen right now..i think i just totally underestimated how long it would take to finish up my christmas stuff..seriously...these past 3 weeks i've been running on like 4-5 hours of sleep each night...which is no bueno, especially if we're marathon training..the most important thing i could do is to get a good night's rest..which hasn't been happening..ha!..right now my eyes feel heavy but i'm awake..b/c i keep thinking about the things i need to still finish...boooooooooooooooo!..gotta look on the bright side..when this is all over..it'll all have been worth it=)..for sure..

so yay...i'm excited for the christmas party tonight..i'm sure it'll lighten up the mood i've been in this week..ha...and then it's off to vegas tomorrow morning to spend with the familia..should be lots of fun..hehe especially all our funky gift exchanges that came up this year..the regular secret santa exchange...the gag gift exchange..the useful gift exchange..hehe should be time for some good laughs..always a good time with the fam=)

so i've recently come to a self realization about myself..i've always known that i have a strong guilty conscience..for like the littlest of things too..but lately i've just been seeing it come out a lot more..i have no idea why...like i'll do something..then be like..aww i feel bad that i couldn't do this better or that i did that wrong or that he/she said that..blah blah blah....i think i have like an "i feel bad...." syndrome...it's so easy to guilt me into something..(***side note: uhh friends..family..please don't take that as an invitation to use against me!=P)...but for reals..like i'll hear something..and feel like it's my job to help out..then feel guilty that i can't do more...or if someone asks something..and i totally know that it's soooooooo wrong of them to ask of me...i'll try to be strong and be like..no! i can't, sorry..then afterwards feel an enormous amount of guilt on my shoulders..which is about the time that i would then need to vent to boyfriend or one of my sister's just so that i know the choices i made were the right ones..and i shouldn't feel bad about them..is that normal? i dunno..i'm weird i guess..hmmm maybe it's a sign that i need to work on this, like a new year's resoltion?..no idea..oh well...i'm just confused=P..as always..

anyways..yah so i'm here at work..we keep hearing word that we're not allowed to leave early today..like they used to let us do in the past..booooooo...heheh..well not like everyone's doing much right now..i think the holiday fever has kicked in...and i'm lazy today..yesterday seemed way more productive...oh well..i guess i'll have to make up for it all next week at work..right now i have so many things i'm thinking about..so with that...i'd like to wish everyone a very very

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

hope you guys all have a great weekend with your family/friends..and to those traveling..be safe!!!!!
and so i'll leave y'all with the christmas song that has been in my head ever since i heard it at one of the malls..heheh enjoy:

Donde Esta Santa Claus

-Augie Rios

Mamacita, donde esta Santa Claus?
Donde esta Santa Claus?
And the toys that he will leave.
Mamacita, oh, where is Santa Claus?
I look for him because it's a Christmas Eve.

I know that I should be sleeping,
But maybe he's not far away,
Out of the window I'm peeping,
Hoping to see him in his sleigh.

I hope he won't forget to clack his castinet,
And to his reindeer, say,
"Oh Pancho, Oh! Vixen, Oh! Pedro, Oh! Blitzen,"
Ole! Ole! Ole! cha cha cha.

Mamacita, donde esta Santa Claus?
Oh! Where is Santa Claus?
It's Christmas Eve.

Mamacita, donde esta Santa Claus?
I look for him because it's Christmas Eve.

I know that I should be sleeping,
But maybe he's not far away,
Out of the window I'm peeping,
Hoping to see him in sleigh.

I hope he won't forget to crack his castinet,
And to his reindeer, say,
"Oh Pancho, Oh! Vixen, Oh! Pedro, Oh! Blitzen,"
Ole! Ole! Ole! cha cha cha.

Mamacita, donde esta Santa Claus?
Oh! Where is Santa Claus?
It's Christmas Eve.

It's Christmas Eve.
It's Christmas Eve.
It's Christmas Eve.
Alright, Mamacita. I'll go to sleep now.
It's Christmas Eve......

He who angers you conquers you.
-Elizabeth Kenny

alright..so i think i might have a slight case of road rage..just a slight one..on the way home yesterday i was trying to merge into the exiting lane..i've got a 1/4 mile to go and the car to my right seems to be playing with me..i'm signaling and starting my merge into the lane but to no avail..the punk won't let me in...i speed up..and he/she seems to know this and speeds up to..what a meanie!..so i begin to think..fine, if i can't get in i'll just take the next exit..but i was like..noooo dangit..they should let me exit here!!..so i try again to merge..and the car again doesn't let me in=(..so i start to feel my face getting warm and the anger stirring...so i stay slowly by the lane reflectors thinking i'll MAKE them let me in!!..grrrr..ha...and whaddayaknow..they take my same exit..and at the last minute the lane is free and i merge and floor the gas pedal so that i'm right behind the car...drama i know..but i was sooooooooooooooooooooooo mad...and then i see these...i "heart" mexico...i "heart" nicaragua..i "heart" el salvador stickers all over the back..and i just roll my eyes and get all pissy at the car..so after tailing them for about 2 lights..i start feeling bad...it's christmas...don't want something retarded like this to mess up my mood..so i just start tuning out to the music in my car...bahhhhhhhhhh...to mean drivers!..

ha, and this morning there was this guy trying to merge into my lane..and no one was letting him in..and i was like...pshhhh it's traffic and you're trying to merge last minute??!!..and then light bulb clicked..and i realized..duh that was me yesterday..so i let him in..and whoever else had to merge i let them in...hahah geeeeeeeeeeez i'm so retarded..but for reals man, that chick last night pissed me off...but uhh is that road rage??=P

so 3 days til christmas..and just when i thought i was all done early w/ my presents..i realize i have about 2 more to go..grrrrrrrreat..could the malls be any more crowded than they already are..i'm so dreading going there this week...

i think me & cici have become movie-watching whores..hahah..that's all we do now..we get home and we watch all the good movies..since we have like a billion movie channels now!..let's see, i've watched for the first time or the second or more all or most of: in good company, lotr: rotk, harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban, harry potter and the chamber of secrets, mean girls, oceans twelve, the prince and me, meet the fockers, supersize me, bruce almighty..i'm sure there's more..but man..never watched so many movies w/in this 2 week span...hahah..we're so lazy huh roomie?=P

ahhhhh..can't wait til friday...soooo much good food is awaiting=)

If you don't learn to laugh at troubles, you won't have anything to laugh at when you grow old.
-Edward W. Howe

maaaaaaan so i'm eating these chicken lettuce wraps from cpk right?..sitting at my desk..trying to chomp on the lettuce quietly since i know the smell of the spicy thai sauce is eminating out of my cube..hahah..don't want to cause too much attention now..and my boss who's cubicle is like diagonally across from me loves to see what i'm eating all the time, so i tried to put the wrap down when i heard him getting up..and maaaaaaaaaan..i freaking dropped it on my seat right in between my legs=(..that thai sauce is oily y'know! and so i have 2 dark spots on my chair..looks like i freaking leaked or something..and it won't come out..booooooooooooooo...when i sit in someone else's seat i always look at the chair to make sure it's clean..now i'm gonna be the "ewww her chair has leak spots on it!" nasty dude!!! bah...

so had our longest run yesterday...tiring! and like these past 2 weeks i've been doing the worst things while training..sleeping late almost every night to do christmas stuff..which does not help me in recuperating my muscle wear and tear..and since i'm all busy after work..no time to cook proper meals..so i've been snacking like crazy...booooooooooooooo.....and i'm suppose to "study" starting today..we'll see if i can even do any this week....ahhhhh not enough time to finish things=(...at least i have most of my christmas shopping done..that's a good thing...cuz we went to the mall last night..and man..the procrastinators are coming out of their shells..cuz it was cuh-rowded!..emphasis on the "c"..hahah...

yaaaaaaaay it rained...although i extremely, most terribly hate driving in the rain..at least it means snowboarding time is upon is..i even saw the snow on the mountaintops last week..yeeha!..time to dust off the gear and see if my knees can handle a session of boarding...duuuuuuuude let's go!..

Lucy: Beethoven's birthday is December 16th Shermy! Have you decided what you're going to get me?
Shermy: Yes! I'm not going to get you anything!
Lucy: What kind of a holiday is it where you don't give girls presents?
-Charles Monroe Schulz, Peanuts

hehe that totally reminded me of a nice little joke boyfriend played on me..or so he says it was a joke=P..he was making his christmas list of things to get everyone..and when he called me over to look at something on the computer i glanced at his other windows and saw the christmas list and got all excited when i saw my name right?..ha and the nice, caring boyfriend i have had something like this written:

babe- nothing

hahah i was like heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...and then he totally busts out laughing like a crazy man..saying hahah i did that on purpose..but for some reason i think he was serious=P..haha i'm so mean...and i shouldn't even be so greedy about getting a present..umm it was just a shock to see=)..don't worry..i heart you still boyfriend..bohahahah...

so anyways..we had a family dinner last saturday..although we had our regular in one ear out the other rambles with our mom..it was still a nice thing to see everyone..and to just be blessed that we all have each other..and so while i was at home i told my older sister (who had pointed out the whole dora thing) about how y'all seemed to agree w/ her!..so we looked at old photo albums and she thought these pics were pretty good to share and see if there was a resemblance..but i must say first..i swear it's the round face and the bangs!!! and tommy..no more laughing!!!! haha





okay so there..that'll be the end of it...and this will hopefully clear up the confusion between myself and miss dora..heheh the end!

duuuuuuuuuuude as i'm typing i'm eating up this yummy cake/pie/fruit tart thingy from porto's..this bakery in glendale..it is soooooooooooo yum-o!...ahhh and earlier we went to shakey's for that buffet lunch..man...and yesterday was our annual christmas breakfast..tomorrow is our annual girl's christmas lunch..next week is our section's christmas party..geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez...have the holidays started or what..it's like non-stop eating..if it wasn't for the marathon training i'd probably gain like a gazillion holiday pounds..hahah...nice.

yay it's friday tomorrow..gotta finish up my christmas presents..pretty much done just have one main one that's driving me crazy.."don't you know i'm loco???"..haha sorry random..just thought of zoolander..alright quick post..need to finish my cake=P..man..last 3 posts all full of pics..enjoy.