We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell

hahah duuuuuuuude i think me & lou have been watching way too much anime lately and just getting excited for japan in general..not that i don't enjoy watching the shows..hehe but for some reason their slang just sticks in my head and all of the sudden it sounds like common english to me as well. take for example today..i had to go out in the field..and instead of saying my usual, okay i'm going now, to my boss..i was about to say "ja-ne" (sounds like jah-neh, and means: ja ne/ja na = see you later/see you then)..hahah but luckily i caught myself before i did..i'm sure she would've been like..uh what?..hahaha..and i know japan's not for like 7 more months..but still..i'm soooooo excited for it..i can't wait!..neon lights at night..smiling and nodding having no idea what's being said to me..sushi/sashimi/sake/udon/bento/yakitori..yuuuuuuuuuuuuum. alright..i'll stop, because i know i'll be saying this same stuff in october..hahah..but seriously..it's totally making lou & me want to do the jet program..gosh..should've done it w/ anne marie...oh well..wishful thinking=P

so on a serious note..i got this forward from my dad yesterday..pretty much telling you about what you can do to detect signs of someone having a stroke..and how just detecting these things you could save their life..so here's the main part of it:

Sometimes symptoms of a stroke are difficult to identify.
Unfortunately, the lack of awareness spells disaster. The stroke
victim may suffer severe brain damage when people nearby fail to
recognize the symptoms of a stroke.
Now doctors say a bystander can recognize a stroke by asking three
simple questions:
S *Ask the individual to SMILE.
T *Ask the person to TALK to SPEAK A SIMPLE SENTENCE
(Coherently) (i.e. . . It is sunny out today)
R *Ask him or her to RAISE BOTH ARMS.
{NOTE: Another 'sign' of a stroke is this: Ask the person to 'stick'
out their tongue... if the tongue is 'crooked', if it goes to one
side or the other that is also an indication of a stroke}
If he or she has trouble with ANY ONE of these tasks, call 9-1-1
immediately and describe the symptoms to the dispatcher.

i think he's way cautious right now b/c of my older cousin who recently suffered a stroke=(. i think i wrote a little about it before..but it's just so hard for me to imagine it..she's only like 34! right now she's in recovery at home, so we all just pray that she gets back to 100% soon. so yah..mmm need to change subject..sorry..

okay only 1.5 hours of work left..then it's time to get ready for some snow action..and studying of course=P

One of the good things about getting older is you find you're more interesting than most of the people you meet.
-Lee Marvin

before i start..happy belated birthday to my cousin ryan boy! happy birthday to kellyjean! and happy early birthday to ate rachel this coming fool's day=P!

so hmm...is my age finally catching up to me? i don't feel like i'm 26..i didn't think i looked like i was 26..but then two of our new female employees both guessed my age around 25-26..whereas my other co-worker, a male, they guessed him to be the same age as me, maybe younger..and he's really 2 years older than me!! boo, what's going on here? for some reason asians can guess my age..everyone else says, oh you look so young..haha for some reason i used to hate hearing that..but these days..i think i'd much rather hear that and still get carded at the casinos/clubs (heheh which still happens..okay not all the time..but most!!)...

i still don't think i'm a mature 26 year old at that either..nice. you'd think that being in my profession i may have gained some maturity/professionalism. well i guess i kinda have..but then who'd think that at the end of my day, besides the studying i have to do now.. that i love watching anime..umm what?=P, i'd much rather be at the beach or in the snow, i still listen to some of the same bands as my younger sister/cousins (i.e. fallout boy), i still wear dunks/chucks/aero/roxy, i still shop in those teeny bopper stores..like forever..haha..duuuuuuude cheap going out tops okay?!, i still love my flaming hot cheetos/fries..i still do all these other things that people way younger than me are probably really into..am i not suppose to anymore? is there seriously some secret code that i'm suppose to know about that tells me that i have to start shopping at ann taylor, casual corner, etc..? that i need to find different hobbies?..ehhh i'm weird, i know.

so anways..i got suckered..hehe gave in and decided to go to mammoth=)..BUT only b/c i was told that i'd for sure be studying one of the days that i won't be going boarding..and b/c i was told that someone else needed to study too!..hahah..so let's hope i stick to that..c'mon guys, MAKE me study..not matter how many times i whine and say i need a study break!..hahhaha.. so woohoo..1 more daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay..yeeha!

The bamboo that bends is stronger than the oak that resists.
-Japanese Proverb

maaaaaaaaan..it's only 730am and i already had some chocolate..just one dove piece...i looooove dove chocolate..well i love any chocolate i guess..hahah..but maaaaaaaan..maybe i should've given that up for lent=P...i bought a bag of those easter hershey kisses..to keep me awake while i study..i got suckered into buying chocolate from one of the neighbors last night for a fundraiser..but i think that candy bar and the hershey kisses will take a while to eat..since i haven't been to the gym in over a month now=(..i can see all my musk-els depleting and turning all jiggly-jaggly..yuck..but ahhh it's so tempting just to eat all of them now..hahah..proportions proportions=P

and after all the junk i've eaten..i like to finish it off with some fruit. for some reason i get it stuck in my head that if i eat some fruit afterwards, it'll cleanse my system..haha kinda like green tea? so cici bought this box of cuties mandarin oranges..they are sooooooooooooo freaking good..i probably ate the whole box..hahah sorry! so i had to replace it with another one. at the rate it's going, that box should be done by tomorrow=P.

let's see..my test is exactly one month away from tomorrow..at this point, you could say i'm stressing a bit..i think moreso because i wish i could do all the example problems that i have..which i know is totally impossible b/c i have so many books/notes to go through. i just think the important thing is for me to remember the basic concepts and recognize a sample problem i've done..ehhhhh...c'mon, 8 topics..oh test must you be so difficult? could you imagine if i just closed my eyes and bubbled in anything and i passed? hahahah that'd be funny...scary at the same time b/c it just goes to show that sometimes multiple choice formats aren't the best way of testing someone..ah well..it's crunch time and i better stay focused...the pressure..ehhhhh.

oooooooooh and belated congratulations to roomie, jay, jovan, alden & nino for finishing the l.a. marathon..good stuff yo! now can we all do this again next year=), i promise my knees will be better..at least i hope so!!=/..and hope our little jenn-tot had a grrreat bday..old lady!! ha jk!

alright so since boyfriend harped on my last night for this..i'll do it..just so lazy..hehe

Four Jobs I have had in my life:
1. Cashier at Majesty DryCleaners (ha, my first job ever, thanx for the hook-up danielle!)
2. 24 Hour Fitness, Customer Service Representative...aka Front Desk
3. UCI Bookstore Cashier/Customer Service
4. Transportation Engineering Associate for the city...yes that's the full boring title

Four movies I would watch over and over:
1. Amelie
2. The Breakfast Club
3. Ferris Bueller's Day Off
4. Beauty and the Beast/Little Mermaid

Four places I've lived:
1. Carson
2. Agoura Hills
3. Irvine
4. San Gabriel

Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. LOST
2. mostly everything on Food Network
3. Cosby Show reruns
4. Real World/Road Rules challenges..ha!

Four Bands/Singers I'd love to meet:
1. Save Ferris
2. John Mayer
3. Babyface
4. Paperboy=P

Places I have been on vacation:
Philippines
Costa Rica
Ensenada
Chicago
Philly
Hawaii

Four web sites I visit daily:
1. Yahoo
2. Msn
3. daily blogs
4. kbig

Four of my favorite foods:
1. French fries
2. my ninang's spaghetti
3. sushi/sashimi
4. mostly anything spicy

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. in my bed
2. at the beaches of hawaii
3. snowboarding in mammoth
4. lounging in front of some coffee/tea joint telling poo stories with my friends

Four individuals who I have tagged that I think will respond:
not sure who hasn't filled this in yet, so if you're reading this..then it's all YOU=)

Forgiveness is love in its most noble form.
-Anonymous

duuuuuude busy week..ehhh..standing up to the man is full of some craziness i must say=P..anyway real quick..muchos gracias to winnie/jenn/dre/daisy/romeyshmoe/janice for being our pseudo tour guides and for all the hospitality over the weekend..i had a blaaaaast..hahah even though i can't remember the last half of the night at that bar..muahahhah..anyways 3 things that i noticed that make me wish i was a guy..umm sometimes:

1) How guys don't have to fix their hair..they can just get up and go..or just shower and go out for the night..whereas we ladies must blowdry/straighten/curl/make our faces/yada yada

2) Guys can just change in front of all of us, whether they're just wearing their boxers/boxer briefs/haha and even tighty whities...now I know us girls are all skilled with doing the whole changing our tops with our current top on, putting on/taking off our bras with our top on..but we can't change our bottoms in front of guys!..ahh they're so lucky!

3) The fact that dudes can pee standing up and we have to squat over a toilet! you don't understand how freaking nasty it is to squat over a toilet at a club/bar/restaurant where the chick before doesn't know how to aim and just splatters EVERYWHERE! so you hope and pray that your quads and hamstrings are strong enough to hold your thighs up long enough for that little peepee break! ESPECIALLY when you're feeling a little tipsy, you're swaying side to side..and you just wish that you have enough strength so that your leg doesn't touch the nasty toilet....hahahah..y'all know what i mean right?

okay that's all..happy st. patrick's day..hope everyone was better than me and didn't forget to wear their green! and be safe in the rain my friends!

The genius of communication is the ability to be both totally honest and totally kind at the same time.
-John Powell

oh my gosh..i'm so retarded..so we were suppose to attend this televised press conference thing today right? and well since i'm still coughing a bit, i figured maybe it'd be a good idea if i took some medicine to suppress the cough during all the talks and stuff..cuz y'know, i don't wanna be coughing up a storm and no one can hear what's said because of me..so i get my medicine and normally i take just one tablet b/c i'm always too scared to take the full dosage...dunno why..but i am..however, this time i get to thinking hmm maybe i should take the 2 tablets just to make sure i don't cough..so it's like 930 when i take the medicine, hoping it'll kick in by 11 or so...and as i'm throwing away the wrapper i notice i took the wrong freaking medicine! i took the night tablets instead of the day ones=(..so like at 1030 i start feeling suuuuuuuuuper drowsy..i go to the media deal at 11..feel all groggy still and i decide it's best if i take a quick nap in my car for lunch..hahahah..but i totally needed the nap because i just felt so out of it!..can't believe i did that..and took 2..nice one.

so yay..day off tomorrow..headed to san jose..it's going to be sooooooooooo cold there..please don't make me sicker san jo!!=/..heheh..ahhhhhhhhhh too much work to catch up on..

oh..and thank you boyfriend for being so mucho paciente and understanding of me when i'm locooooo..hahhaha

Oh, what a tangled web we weave,
When first we practice to deceive!
-Sir Walter Scott

i always thought that came from shakespeare..i guess he just borrowed it? so i've been thinking..i guess a lot lately..seeing as how i've been a sickly coughing bedridden bum since saturday=(.. what more could i do? (yah i got sick again...booooooo!!!)..hahha....anyways..i've come to realize how much i totally value honesty..well duh doesn't everyone? but i mean like really..i take it to heart and offensively if someone has the audacity to lie to me, especially those i consider very near and dear to me..and if that does happen, i have this tendency to just blow them off..i guess i used to always be this person who trusts in the beginning and if you falter, then that trust will slowly diminish..now because of past/present circumstances, i think i'm slowly becoming those who give you zero trust in the beginning, and you just have to earn it..harsh? well it's either one or the other right?

i dunno..call it a protective barrier or whatever..but who wants to get hurt in the long run? and i'm not saying i've always been the honest person..ha, i've told my fair share of white lies..hmm why are they called white lies?..but yah, you know..the lies to the parentals to get out of the house..the excuses to get out of something you don't want to do...yada yada..but when it comes down to it, i don't think i've ever lied that would intentionally hurt someone in the end..make sense? i guess when i have been lied to, it's so hard for me to trust again 100%..in the back of my mind there's always this nagging voice telling me that they f-d up, it'll just happen again..but at the same time, you figure if the person is worth it..then you'd give that second chance and start again..i can forgive..but i can't forget..like cici always says..must be the scorpion sting in me?..ha..you've been warned=)..so please, to stay in my good book..just don't lie..it's not becoming of you=P.. and it's not hard to do right?..right?

ahh don't want to think so much right now..as if catching up on my work isn't making my head dizzy enough..i really hope i'm well by the weekend..cuz we get to congratulate the soon to be dr. romey-shmoe in san jose!!!..future chiropracter of america..hahah..craziness! hopefully we get to hang out with my favorite jenn-tot too..miss that girl!..aaaaaaaand i hope i'm better b/c i'd hate to not see lou's newborn nephew isiah..well i guess all the pictures i'm sure boyfriend will take would be okay for me too..but awww i love newborns and when they have that baby smell! but if i have any ounce of sickness in me, i shall stay away b/c i'd hate for the baby to get sick!!!

so it's crunch time for the exam..about a little over a month to go..sometimes i wonder if all this studying and stress is worth the exam..maybe i should go to a fortune teller..ha, maybe then i can find out if i have any chance at all of at least passing one portion of the test..then i'd be at ease=)..well wouldn't we all?..

i just got word from work that they want to do a charity powder puff game..and maybe a charity softball game..shall i participate? i'm really curious to see how our girls football team would look like..but umm..like a few of you know..i uhh can get a little competitive..hahah..grrreat..so we'll see..anyone interested?...april 30..mark your calendars..or maybe not, haha don't want to get all embarassed=P.

Roses grow on thorns and honey wears a sting.
-Isaac Watts

so today i joined in applause about sticking it to the man..haha...and that's all i'm allowed to say about that..too much politics involved..so mum's the word for now..

i wonder sometimes how people can be so mean to each other..like for the littlest of things..and i'd have to include myself into that "people" category..i just don't get it..like one moment it'll be, haha..then in an instant..heyyyy that's mean!..and then wham..the mean monster comes out of us..ehh, it's just a joke sometimes..take it easy..but then i guess if the person takes offense to it..could it be a realization of the truth for them? like they start to realize that, yes although it is a joke it actually applies to them? i dunno, rambling nonsense.

so i am now officially dropped out of this year's la marathon..but with my doctor's note i'm registered for the 2007 marathon already..that's good i guess..but it really puts the pressure on me to HAVE to pass this freaking test...and as great as it sounds to pass all 3 parts of it..i'm keeping my fingers crossed on that..with the test over at the end of next month, i'd like to at least train again for a summer marathon? is that asking too much from my knees?=P...i did get some incredulous looks on saturday when i said i wanted to do the sd marathon..which is the week before team somumoknete's first mudrun appearance!!..i guess since we'll be training for the mudrun, it might be conflicting if i want to train for a marathon?

ehhh i shouldn't think about it.. for now, march is solely dedicated to studying..boooooo...i've already declined a snowboarding trip to utah=(..must i decline mammoth as well???bahhh..this sucks!..i guess i'm just freaking out right now about the test..like, if i just keep studying and don't go on the trips..how do i know i'll even pass? this test is consuming me..so much so that i started stressing over the weekend about how much i still have to study that i think i weakened my immune system yet again..because my yucky cough has resurfaced..and i'm coughing up the nasty stuff...although i try to see this sickness stuff as a result of me not running like i did before..maybe that's why my immune system is weak? i need to start exercising again?..haha..

duuuuuuuuuude...why must people showcase every single thing they do? i mean, yah pat yourself on the back for reaching your own personal goals..but must you tell everyone??? am i being mean? maybe..i dunno..it just gets annoying sometimes..and i have to bite my tongue from saying things i'd probably feel bad about afterwards..but arghhhhhhh...sometimes i just want to shout..oh yah? i've done that a miiiiiiiiiiillion times..but i don't go telling everyone..must be differences in personality? is it all for attention? tell me, why?..ahhh..i should just shut-up now..

so lent..debated about what to give up..junk food?chocolate..again=(? candy?shopping?..yah, shopping won out..so no shopping til after easter..i wonder if that includes sales that you'll never see things be that cheap ever again??..is that an exception?=P..and for my own personal growth?..i'd like to volunteer like the roomie..maybe do some habitat for humanity..but i'll start researching that stuff in may..must concentrate on the test..test..test..=(