Roses grow on thorns and honey wears a sting.
-Isaac Watts

so today i joined in applause about sticking it to the man..haha...and that's all i'm allowed to say about that..too much politics involved..so mum's the word for now..

i wonder sometimes how people can be so mean to each other..like for the littlest of things..and i'd have to include myself into that "people" category..i just don't get it..like one moment it'll be, haha..then in an instant..heyyyy that's mean!..and then wham..the mean monster comes out of us..ehh, it's just a joke sometimes..take it easy..but then i guess if the person takes offense to it..could it be a realization of the truth for them? like they start to realize that, yes although it is a joke it actually applies to them? i dunno, rambling nonsense.

so i am now officially dropped out of this year's la marathon..but with my doctor's note i'm registered for the 2007 marathon already..that's good i guess..but it really puts the pressure on me to HAVE to pass this freaking test...and as great as it sounds to pass all 3 parts of it..i'm keeping my fingers crossed on that..with the test over at the end of next month, i'd like to at least train again for a summer marathon? is that asking too much from my knees?=P...i did get some incredulous looks on saturday when i said i wanted to do the sd marathon..which is the week before team somumoknete's first mudrun appearance!!..i guess since we'll be training for the mudrun, it might be conflicting if i want to train for a marathon?

ehhh i shouldn't think about it.. for now, march is solely dedicated to studying..boooooo...i've already declined a snowboarding trip to utah=(..must i decline mammoth as well???bahhh..this sucks!..i guess i'm just freaking out right now about the test..like, if i just keep studying and don't go on the trips..how do i know i'll even pass? this test is consuming me..so much so that i started stressing over the weekend about how much i still have to study that i think i weakened my immune system yet again..because my yucky cough has resurfaced..and i'm coughing up the nasty stuff...although i try to see this sickness stuff as a result of me not running like i did before..maybe that's why my immune system is weak? i need to start exercising again?..haha..

duuuuuuuuuude...why must people showcase every single thing they do? i mean, yah pat yourself on the back for reaching your own personal goals..but must you tell everyone??? am i being mean? maybe..i dunno..it just gets annoying sometimes..and i have to bite my tongue from saying things i'd probably feel bad about afterwards..but arghhhhhhh...sometimes i just want to shout..oh yah? i've done that a miiiiiiiiiiillion times..but i don't go telling everyone..must be differences in personality? is it all for attention? tell me, why?..ahhh..i should just shut-up now..

so lent..debated about what to give up..junk food?chocolate..again=(? candy?shopping?..yah, shopping won out..so no shopping til after easter..i wonder if that includes sales that you'll never see things be that cheap ever again??..is that an exception?=P..and for my own personal growth?..i'd like to volunteer like the roomie..maybe do some habitat for humanity..but i'll start researching that stuff in may..must concentrate on the test..test..test..=(