When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
--Alexander Graham Bell

ahhh this is one of my most favoritest of quotes..yet for some reason..there are times where i just can't get past that closed door...i try and i try...but i dunno..it's like..the closer i come to that opened door..the one with all the possibilities..all the new beginnings...i get drawn back to peak into that closed door..in curiousity for all those unanswered, irking questions...and what is that famous saying..curiousity killed the cat?..i guess you could say that i've come to understand that cat very well..i wish that i wasn't so dang naive in understanding things...but i need to be understood for my actions..if they go away without notice or any acknowledgement..knowing me..they're bound to pop up again..and that is not a pretty sight..gosh..so drama i know..but hey..we all go through it some time..i just wish i could be given some sort of reassurance that i have no reason to look back at that faded door..so in earnst of all my drama-ness...i'm trying to understand certain things myself..maybe this way things will somehow take care of themselves...whether this works or not..i have no idea..anyways..enough of my nonsense..so yah..another week of work..this is going to be one long stress-filled week...after saturday it wil be all over!...at least i'm hoping and praying it will be..and then i celebrate and go to vegas afterwards...woohoo! although this little gambling expenditure will not add to me getting rid of my debt..hopefully it'll brighten up the crazy week i'm gonna have..this weekend was cool...although it started out a bit rough..i think it smoothed out along the way=)..i went with lou to his lola's 90th birthday yesterday..it was fun..heheh we got to swing again...ahhh swing...where it all began=)..that is a memory i'll never forget...yay..okay time to pick up my dad and litlle sister...laters man..

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)