Emotional sickness is avoiding reality at any cost. Emotional health is facing reality at any cost.
--M. Scott Peck

so here it is...i have officially crossed over into reality...my last escape was on the way to work this morning...i tried to relax myself and not get nervous about the whole first day thing..so of course..i play the lovely melodies of hawaii...you know ..the peaceful soothing traditional songs...and i dunno..maybe i'm pms'ing or something..but i just got really emotional..it was hitting me..i can't call irvine my home anymore..because it's not..as of yesterday..i can't call myself a college student anymore..because i graduated...and i can't say i'm a lazy bum anymore..cuz when 7 o'clock came around this morning..that status disappeared at that very moment...and all the while i'm in the car..this is what i'm thinking...and i guess it was just to overwhelming...so to save face in front of my dad while we go to work..i try to change the cd..cuz it's just ahhhh...so i do..and my dad wants me to play the cd still...i think he likes the guitar/ukelele parts..soo....what can yah do..i dunno..i think i'm just retarded and need to get over this all already..and i'm not talking about the hawaii withdrawals..i'm over that...i just need to realize that things change...not for the worse necessarily..and no matter how much i wish things were like the old days...they can't be...i think i need a crazy "doc" to build me a time machine..and when times like this come around...send me back baby...cuz i'm ready...wouldn't that be nice?...yah i know i'm not alone on this one!

-aloha and mahalo...belle=)