I wash my hands of those who imagine chattering to be knowledge, silence to be ignorance, and affection to be art.
-Kahlil Gibran

it's only tuesday huh? i feel stressed again. not so much as before, but i still get that feeling that a dark cloud is over me. but only at work. still a blah place to be right now. i'm just hoping that things turn around soon, b/c morale around here sucks these days.

at least i have the weekends to enjoy right? always good to be around your family and friends anyways. kaylena's baptism was this weekend. aww she's soooooooooooo freaking cute. haha too bad she was sleeping during most of the baptism. and man i was so tired that whole day afterwards b/c of the run we did earlier that morning. i think i knocked out for like 3+ hours afterwards. we were suppose to go out again w/ the cousins but i just felt like a zombie the rest of the day. hehe hopefully i'm not like that after the disney half this weekend!

so i had my annual physical yesterday. and somehow the conversation of babies came up w/ my doctor. she asked me how old i'll be this year and i said 27 in november. to which she started lecturing me about how i should start having kids now and we shouldn't wait like her and her husband did in case any difficulties arose. and man, i was just kinda shocked at first. i guess more b/c baby talk has been the issue with my older sister and her husband these days so i didn't think it'd lead back to me. i know that in the future i want to have kids, but i guess i just didn't think that i'd need to have them now. make sense?

i don't know. she asked why not, and first off i said b/c we're not married..duh..hehe and second b/c i still want to get that traveling bug out of me before i really settle down. she said she understood..but does that sound selfish on my part? i mean i know when my mom was my age she already had my sister. is it just different with our generation? where we want to live the whole independent life before starting a family? and plus i know financially we're not ready either. i don't know. i never wanted to think of it as, i have to have one now or else. i always just thought, when it happens it happens. sorry rambling.

hmm so i hate dealing with insurance issues. i wish they were more clear about certain things so that i wouldn't have to complain to them. blah, i don't like getting mean! haha..