The best proof of love is trust.
-Joyce Brothers

you ever get that feeling where the walls feel like they're closing in on you and you're just backed into a corner with nowhere to go..and your only outlet for comfort is to scream..to just let it all out of your system..otherwise you just curl into a little ball and feel like there's no one there that understands you..that you shouldn't have to feel that way and no matter how hard you try not to, this "thing" always seems to find you all over again..it's all a neverending cycle..you're confused..in denial..scared..lost..and alone..or maybe that's just me..

i dunno..i can't seem to understand certain things..and as many times as i go through it..it's useless..what's the point in trying to accept and understand something that will always be beyond your grasp and never shared with you? it's like the more you think you're making the situation better by choosing to finally accept something, in the end it makes no difference..it was never mine to have to accept..no matter what, it would always be there..and the more you try to make it better, the worse things get and you end up feeling crappy and uncertain..what do you do..forget and try to get over it..again..blahhhh..this sucks..