I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear...And when it is gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear is gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
-Frank Herbert


well...i've gone and done did it. there's no turning back now. what was i thinking?!? i signed up w/ a triathlon training group! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh so nervous, so scared, but excited too. had our first meeting on sunday where i ran 4 miles. man, that's the farthest i've ran since the LB half in october! i was a bit wary at first in signing up, just bc the whole group (oh, did i mention it's all women?) seems a bit cliquey. i totally thought the 1st meeting/training day was for all the newbies..but it was w/ existing members too. man, i felt like i was back in freshman year at my first kaba meeting or something. i did know 1 person, but i didn't want to hang on to her the whole time bc i needed to get to know the new people joining..these would be my training buddies! ha, sucks being so shy in front of strangers=/. i did meet 2 new chicks..but too bad they're not signing up til the summer session. boo!!

but i have to suck it up and remember that i signed up for the triathlon training to reach my goals. figured i'd stay disciplined w/ mandatory training sessions & a calendar full of workout days.  hoping it gets better the next 10 weeks. i would really like to conquer my fear of open water swimming and learn proper swim technique. i can't tread for more than 10s..haha at least to me it feels like 10seconds, watch it's really only like 3. hahaha. so i if i make training buddies along the way, great. if not..well here goes my loner training=P. at least i've got hubby to give me support too. tonight we have a spin class...hope it goes well.

so there i go again spreading myself thin. i've got about 1 month left to study for my test, and what do i do? sign up for another activity already! sheesh, i've got issues. really need to get my time management into gear. about a month after my test is the tri that i want to do. i was planning on just doing the mini sprint distance, but husby of mine has faith that i can finish the whole sprint distance. how sweet. ha, but i'm really freaking out right now about swimming in the bay. i've been watching videos of the same tri in previous years, trying to figure out if during the swim start the people are treading or just standing before the race starts. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....so....scared. please lessons help me conquer the fear!

yesterday we totally forgot that it was FAT TUESDAY! so we went to lucille's and pigged out. mmm bbq, biscuits & apple butter, and fried pickles!!! oh geez it was so much food. afterwards we could barely move! and well, seeing as how i forgot yesterday was fat tuesday, that was more apparent today when i forgot it was ash wednesday=(. i packed the leftovers for our lunches and was happily chomping on some bbq chicken when i saw the headings of fasting/mass/ashes all over the web. well, that was my last bite for lunch and i guess i'll be doing my non-meat meal tomorrow. boo on me!

couldn't decide on what to give up for lent. for now i've decided it'll be fried foods (same for the past 2 years) and to be more disciplined and motivated on the 2 goals at hand. must give up on unnecessary distractions!

LOG:
3/6 - 4 mile run along newport back bay
3/8 - about 550m swim. spent 32 mins in the water doing laps/jumping in place to keep the heart rate up