It's always the challenge of the future, this feeling of excitement, that drives me.
-Yoshihisa Tabuchi


ahhhhhhhhhhhh the tri's already this weekend!!! where has the time gone? i swear it feels like just a few days ago when i changed my blog title=P. i'm a bunch of nerves right now. well i've been like this ever since i got my confirmation email 2 weeks ago. oh goodness, what's wrong with me. i don't think my nerves have ever been this bad. i was nervous for the marathon, but i don't think i got this anxious, squeamish feeling like i have now. as i type, my stomach's already starting to jump and i can feel my heart racing. calm down...breathe...it'll be fun!

since i don't own a wetsuit, i borrowed one for the week from one of our tri group's sister store. figured i might as well be comfortable in the same wetsuit brand that i trained the past 3 lake swims in. man..i'm so freaked about the bay swim that i took a vacation day on wednesday just to practice open water swimming around long beach. hubby was nice enough to take the day off with me and help me get through it. you'd think that after 3 lake swims i'd be comfortable right? wrong. once we got into the bay my heart was pounding, my arms started feeling really tight in the wetsuit, and i wanted to just run out of the water already! haha, what a wuss=/.

so, after about 10-15 mins of just trying to get my breathing steady under water and getting acclimated to the cold water i finally got the cahones to go the 1/4 mile out. husby would wait for me after every buoy so it was good practice for my sighting to swim straight, but it was also a HUGE help in relieving my panicky mood. and it is true, the wetsuit keeps you afloat. though i know this, i still panic. but i got through the first practice run! and after a minute of resting, we swam our way back for another 1/4 mile. yay! haha i think hubs was more excited for it than i was-he was so proud of me=). i was relieved i got through it, and yeah i was happy i swam it all..but i just kept getting the nagging feeling that well..i only got through it bc i knew lou was watching out for me the whole time. come sunday, he'll be in a totally different wave time than me.=(. haha i'm such a baby! but really, my fear for open water is bad. and i'm grateful for these practice swims w/ hubby to get me used to the feeling. after work today we'll have one more trip to LB again to swim w/ the wetsuit. time to suck it up.

i'm so excited! i'm so scared! hahahha...LET'S DO THIS!!!