We all dream; we do not understand our dreams, yet we act as if nothing strange goes on in our sleep minds, strange at least by comparison with the logical, purposeful doings of our minds when we are awake.
-Erich Fromm

just want to start off by saying "happy happy birthday joeeeeeeeeee!" hope you have a good day today and command people to do your bidding since it's your special day..haha..

okay, so i had this dream tuesday night that wamu went bankrupt!! and so i need to tell my dream so that it doesn't come true..so i know dreams are related to our subconscious thoughts b/c the night before i was trying to reorder a box of checks and their website was being updated so i wasn't able to..which probably explains the dream..anyways, in my dream they said they'd reimburse everyone the $$ that was still in their accounts..but i had to write a check to pay for something but i didn't have anymore b/c i ran out and stupid wamu was going bankrupt so i couldn't get checks from them..so i decide to apply to my credit union for a checking account..but when i do, they tell me that to start one i need to write them a check for $50..well duh, the whole reason i'm trying to go to you guys is b/c i don't have checks and need them from you..so the dream kept going in circles..i know i was pretty frantic in it..and when i woke up yesterday i was like..whoaaaaaaaa trippy...okay i know that was weird, but it made sense to me while i typed it..haha

duuuuuuuuuuuuuude so me & jovan freaking signed up for the la marathon...ahhhhh i know i was all hyped up for it before..but i scurrrrred now man..i've been lagging on my long distance runs..i've kept to pace with my 2-6 mile runs..the farthest i've ran is only 8 miles..but man..26.2 miles yo! that's freaking insane..ahhhhhhhhhhhhh....ah well..at least i have my free dell dj to play some good tunes while i try to get to the finish lines..yup, free!! cuz stupid dell lagged on sending me a replacement tower and so they compensated me and i chose the mp3player..heheh..so now they're nice dell=)..i know it's not as clean as an ipod..but hey, who can beat free..always the best deals when it's free..woohoo..oh and by the way..who's free on march 5th to cook me & jovan up a mean carbo loaded dinner??hahhaha..any takers???=)

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.
-Confucius

mmmm i'm sooo freaking stuffed from this whole weekend..the food was yum! can't get enough turkey and pot roast and ham and yams and po-tay-toes and pie..i can go on..food is good..hahah dude i sound like such a pig right now...oh well..the holidays have begun..

so me & lou always make up a christmas list of what we want..and today we're suppose to trade lists..yet i can't figure out what i want for christmas..i don't know if that's a good thing or not..hmm i mean..of course there's things that i want..i could go to target and point at a zillion things that would be cool to have..but to actually think of what i want/need right now..i don't know..am i content then w/ everything i have?..haha yah right, otherwise i wouldn't drag lou to the mall with me when i feel the urge to shop=P..so to help me figure out my list, boyfriend tells me to go through my everyday routine and think of things that would make it easier or more enjoyable..

hmmm..the only thing i could say that i want right now is to travel..i mean of course it's always nice and sweet to get presents, i'm not trying to say i'm someone who doesn't get all giddy inside tearing apart the wrapping paper..cuz i know when i was younger i loooooooooved opening presents...but i guess it's different these past christmas'..i mean..i sooo enjoy shopping and getting presents for other people..i like seeing their faces glow when they get a present..it gives you that warm christmas'y feeling inside..but as for me..i'm at a blank..sorry boyfriend!..let's just travel the world yah?=)..so yah..the dreamer i am..i'm still planning to go to europe & japan & see the rainforests..but my christmas list??..ahhhh i dunno!!!

oh yah..hehe i was meaning to post this early w/ our philly trip post..heheh this store had the greatest shirts..soooo funny=P

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-E. M. Forster

thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks to everyone who came out on friday to celebrate my birthday w/ me and get faaaaaaaaaaaaaaded..hahhha...good times at corner office as usual..the food at ilovesushi wasn't bad either..and another thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks to those who came out to vegas for cici & me's b-days..hehe another grand ol time..

man, looking at the pics from corner office..i don't remember taking some of them..haha good sign of the alcohol getting to me..i do have some faint memory of me hiding under the bar and cicely or tinz pulling me up..did that happen? or was i dreaming..hehe oh well..it's always fun to see old faces at these parties..it's even funner to be able to get crunk w/ them and enjoy the night..i totally thought i'd be able to hold in the alcohol all the way back to lou's house..but what can yah say..i've become a lightweight..and boyfriend's truck doesn't have the best shocks to it (did i say that right?)..especially when going over bumps and stuff..so thanks boyfriend for pulling over twice for me so i can cleanse my liver of all that bad alchy-hall..haha..man, how come i have this habit of locking myself in the bathroom? when we got to lou's house..i locked the door and yacked in his bathroom..when i woke up i was lying on the ground shivering from the cold..hehe..so when i get to lou's room he's sound asleep..then in the morning i'm like...boo you left me down there and i was soooo cold..and of course...he tells me that he kept knocking on the door for me to open the door..man..such a bad habit of mine!=P..so thanx boyfriend..for trying to take care of your drunkard girlfriend..hehe..

hmm..let's think of other things that night..oh yah, woohoo jevon danced w/ me!!! haha at least i think he did?=P..man i can't remember, i know he danced near me at least..hehe...oooh and we got to see jenn-tot!!..it's always nice to see yah girl=)..did josepheen ever make it out?..oh and what's fun is when the bartender hooks you up w/ the drinks..when i took a purple hooter w/ trish the bartender was like..i've got enough for a second round of shots if you can finish those fast enough..and sure enough...we freaking down our shots for another one..who could pass up that offer?=)..so again...thanks to all for the good times and getting faaaaded with me...it was mucho fun..we shall do this again soon! (and happy early birthday to vu, andree, aileen & caren!! miss y'alls)

How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours.
-Wayne Dyer quotes

woohooooooooooooooooo when it rains..it snows!! well most of the time..and this time it did..so yeeha, hopefully we can go boarding this saturday, if it doesn't all melt away=P...dude..so yah i know we all hate driving in the rain in traffic..but it's like 10 billion times worse when you have to go pee sooooo freaking bad...right when i got out of work i was thinking "hmm should i use the bathroom? i did drink tea, and tea always makes me have to use the bathroom...nah, i want to go home now..i'm sure i'll be okay til i get home" hahhah yah riiiiiiiiiight!

let's see..going at a rate of 10-20 mph, i was on the freeway a lot longer than i had expected..so with about 10 more miles to go, i had to go soooo bad..and it didn't help that i kept hearing raindrops falling and just watching it fall increased my angst to pull over and just relieve myself..but ummm that wasn't an option seeing as how it was bumper to bumper and everyone woulda seen my arse..hehe...so i tried to think of happy thoughts to take my mind off the agony..so like 30 minutes pass..i'm hopping in my seat..i'm 2 exits away..the traffic is speeding up now..i'm getting ready to unbuckle my seat and bumrush it to the bathroom..and what happens?...when i'm 1 mile away from my exit...traffic goes back to a snail's pace..aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh....

the first thing that popped in my head? "damn, this is what i get for telling lou not to let tha stupid truck cut in our lane on the way to knott's!!!"..hahah fine, you were right jay..shoulda let her go..but still..that causes traffic!!..hehe.. well, since i am a believer of the boomerang theory..what goes around comes around..i figured that was my punishment=P...such a harsh one too..oh well..did i learn my lesson?..yah, make sure i use the bathroom before i go home..muahahhahha=P

Once the toothpaste is out of the tube, it's hard to get it back in!
-H.R. Haldeman

hahah that's suppose to be a quote about truth..funny..yeeha no work tomorrow or friday...going up north for lou's cousin's wedding..woohoo..man, 2 weekends in a row of trips..i think i'm going to get to comfortable with this..i know that next week at work is going to go by sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking slow...anyways..just to let you know...big brother is watching!!!...but i do like the part about getting your drinks fast in barcelona..hahhaha...scary thought eh?

It's the constant and determined effort that breaks down resistance, sweeps away all obstacles.
-Claude M. Bristol

i had a headache earlier so i decided to get me some food..ended up getting the chicken tender kid's meal from burger king..w/ some bbq sauce..and of course..as i'm eating my chicken..i'm reminded of why i stopped eating chicken tenders w/ bbq sauce for the longest time..hahah i remember my junior year in hs..i was dating this one dude..and he had burger king right before he was taking me home..i was kinda sick so i guess my sense of smell was either really strong or just didn't like any yucky smell..and what did the guy order..chicken tenders w/ bbq sauce..and when he went to hug me good night..all i could smell was the nasty bbq/chicken breath coming from his mouth while he was trying to talk all sweet to me..hahhaaha..i dunno why but i was soooooooooooo disgusted...who knows, maybe i was pms'ing..(hahah danielle might know what guy i'm talking about)..but ever since then, i didn't order bbq sauce with my chicken for the longest time..i didn't even want to order burger king anymore..retarded i know..but obviously i do now..it was just a random funny thought i guess..hahha..ewwwwwwwwwww bbq chicken breath..grossssssssssssssssssss=P

so yah...me & louie boy are back from the city of brotherly love..philly yo!..thank you boyfriend for a good spontaneous weekend..it was fuuuuun..the architecture, philly cheesesteaks, historical sites, philly cheesesteaks, shopping, and more philly cheesesteaks..were the best! the people were pretty nice too..the seafood and pretzels weren't so bad either=P..mmmm..i wouldn't mind going there again..there's still a lot of sight seeing i'd like to do..hahah we even did a visit to the museum of art and ran up the infamous rocky balboa steps..and of course took our tourist pictures..i'll try to post some up later..it's so weird how close to history we were..i mean, we got to see the liberty bell, where they signed the declaration of independence, betsy ross' house, see where washington's troops fought, see all of ben franklin's famous sites..it's just crazy that's all..i dunno, i can't describe it...it's like seeing what you learned in history books right in front of your face..very cool i might say...can't wait to do it again.

When you make the finding yourself - even if you're the last person on Earth to see the light - you'll never forget it.
-Carl Sagan

dang dude, this week feels soooooo long...usually i'm excited about thursdays cuz that means it's almost friday..but today it's like..huh, it's only freaking thursday today?..ahhhh..maybe i'm just being impatient cuz i'm anxiously anticipating this weekend..why?..well, only b/c me & boyfriend are going to visit philly and eat us some authentic cheesesteaks like boyz II men & fresh prince do..mmm...and then i guess do some shopping and of course visit all of those historical sights..sure it may sound weird that out of all the places to go..we're going to philly..but for a quick 3-day trip, i think philly is a good place to explore and start the beginning of a traveling era..hehe..yeeha woohoooooey!=P

so this week i started my pre-training for the l.a. marathon..eek scary..i'm following this training schedule for beginners that's on the marathon site..and the training doesn't officially start until next sunday..so i figure i'll just run some now just to warm up and get used to it all..but man.. i have to able to go 5 miles next sunday..i've only worked up to 4 so far..hahah grreat..eww and my friend was telling me these marathon tips and stories from past runners..like how you should coat your feet with gobs of vaseline b/c by the time you reach the 13th mile, you're feet get sooo swollen..so i guess the vaseline suppose to act as a buffer to not let that happen? and i think also to prevent blisters and stuff..ewww and she also told me that afterwards the skin on you're feet might get all tore up and you're toe nails can fall off...yuck! but as she said..these are all typical things that happen after running 26.2 miles..nasty..but nonetheless i'll still try to run it..hehe..anyone else wanna join me & jovan strive for the finish line to reach our gold medal?=P c'mon, you know you want to!..muahahhaha..