We deceive ourselves when we fancy that only weakness needs support. Strength needs it far more.
-Madame Swetchine

i've been thinking why i don't blog so often anymore..it's not that i don't have a lot of things to vent out..i do..it's just that there's been so much going on these past few weeks..first, there's the issue of my job and whether or not the city will actually have to layoff because of freaking schwarzenegger's budget cuts...it's ironic you know?..how everyone says, "oh you work for the city? you'll be a lifer, that's such a stable job"..sure it is, until the governor decided that all the cities in caleeeeforneeeya don't need that much money, "why don't we cut their projects...oh what? workers will be laid off as a result? oh well, the people wanted they're car registration fees lowered...that's what they get"..screw you man!!!!!!!!!!!!!..ahhhhhhhhhhhhh...for the past 2 weeks me and my co-workers have been freaking out about this..and it's not just the public sector..it's all a chain reaction..the cities gets hurt and so do the private companies who contract with the cities..what's going on here buddy..hopefully the car tax gets reinstated since the issue is now being asked to go to the supreme court now..i'd rather pay more tax than out of a job..and i know i'm not alone on that thought..blehh..don't even wanna think about that right now...and so, to add to work..i have to start thinking about my parents health and how they're getting older..my dad has diabetes and my mom is so old fashioned that she refuses to see a doctor whenever she gets sick..it's really hard to see your parents not as strong as they were before..they're my mom and dad..they're suppose to be invincible y'know?..i'll stop on that one..too emotional for me...and then there's my little sister who keeps getting injured from b-ball and continues to play even if she's got a sprained knee and elbow..so much going on..i have no idea where to start or what to do..it's just one day at a time i guess..enjoy what you've got and be thankful for it all.