Understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only with acceptance can there be recovery.
-J.K. Rowling

it's always hard to give in when you believe you're right. we always want to be right don't we? and when you feel like it's an equal fault among both, it's always hard to accept. hard to think that things can easily be compromised and get better. i guess i'll always have that mentality of forgiving but not forgetting. sad isn't it? people always preach to just forgive and forget. but it's way easier said than done. and even if you do want to forget, how can you? there's always something or someone to remind you of whatever happened. can someone honestly tell me how to forget something? it just makes things hard sometimes. whenever you feel like you're moving 1 step forward, all of the sudden it feels like you just took one huge leap back. make sense? i dunno..i'm rambling.

and i've come to realize how much i really dislike someone. i didn't know how much i did until recently. i've always thought that i could be the better person and just be ehhhh about it and forget. but i can't. i know it would make things easier for everyone too if i could. but i really can't get over how much this person pisses me off everytime i think about what they did. i think of it as total disrespect. and what's funny is that they'd probably be so oblivious to it if i ever saw them again. ha, but just wait. if i'm ever drunk enough, the way i feel about you will all come out. at this point though, i don't think i can even stand being in the same room. bahhh i'm already getting irritated just thinking about her. stupid people sometimes. c'mon and think. did you really have to do that?..blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

enough.
just breathe.
sometimes,
they can just be
stupid.

and i feel a little better=)