Trust yourself, you know more than you think you do.
-Benjamin Spock

oh how i wish that were so true. there have been so many instances where i think i should do something but just doubt myself and look for reassurance. it's one thing that i've always been trying to improve. i remember back in junior high/high school, i was so dependent on what my parents & sisters thought on what i should be doing. i'd always be like, "hey should i do this? hey what do you think of that? are you sure that's okay?" and they were more than willing to give an opinion.

but i think when it was time for college, it sunk in my older sister's head that i had to be the one to make my own decisions..i needed to grow up. so whenever i'd call for advice, everyone would pawn it off to someone else. i'd ask my dad and he'd say ask your mom. i ask mom, she says ask your dad or ate. so i ask ate, and she'd just straight say, you need to make up your own mind i can't tell you what to do anymore. and as much as i'd always plead with her to help me and just give me her opinion..she just wouldn't. i guess that's a good thing and i'm thankful for it b/c eventually i started getting more decisive and more opinionated on certain things (mmm like when rude people piss me off or if we get bad service..hehe i now know how to handle those situations=P). of course i still get those times where i need to be told what i said/did was okay. i don't know why, habit i guess?

so i dunno...i guess what stemmed the thought was that, hello i'm 26. my parents aren't getting any younger. and i need to realize that and know that our roles are changing. i know i'm not dependent on them anymore..for a while i haven't been. but the parent/child roles have reversed. and now it's time for me to take care of dad & mom. even if i'm not at home, they still need us. it's just hard sometimes when a situation arises and there's nothing you can do to help. this time i (we) have to be the ones to reassure them that things will be okay. i guess i just don't know how to deal with it sometimes..but, if my parents were able to handle me & my sisters..then we should be able to help them as well. sorry. rambling.

let's change moods...it's friday right?..so let's start it with some GOOD laughs..muahhah..too bad we didn't see this during the actual game..but ha! take that nash!!!
courtesy of boyfriend:







haaaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa=)...happy friday!