Tears are God's gift to us. Our holy water. They heal us as they flow.
-Rita Schiano


so i was a big cry baby on sunday. so much so that i didn't want to do a eulogy. i remember the one i did for my lolo..and i sounded like a blubbering idiot. i don't think anyone knew what i was saying anyways. so for tito boy, me & my younger cousin val just stayed back while our siblings spoke. and everything they said of tito boy was exactly what we would've said...his crazy monkey faces, his tech savy-ness-always the first (hehe at least out of the aunties/uncles) to get the best new craze in technology, how he was always willing to help us in our studies, and how he was ALWAYS smiling..never once showing us that he was in pain. such a strong-willed individual, and a role model for all of us. we'll miss you lots tito boy, rest in peace....though i will admit, i'm still in denial.

it's so weird how it's either a wedding or a funeral that brings all the families together. you'd hope that it's always for a happy reason to cause a family reunion. though i guess in the death of a loved one, you are celebrating their life. so it's a pseudo happy reason?

hmm so what else is new. kinda weird to talk about other stuff..so i'll just finish with my log:

friday 2/4: 400m swim, 18 mins - 15s intervals between 25m. improved in the first 200 yds. but the next 200 yards were tiring. think i put too much energy in the first half.

monday 2/7: 20 mile bike ride. more on that in my next post.
                    1hr study

tuesday 2/8: 2hr study. slowly getting there.