I would rather have a mind opened by wonder than one closed by belief.
-Gerry Spence

so it was ash wednesday yesterday right? i went to mass at the cathedral during lunch..got the usual funny glances from people in my building when i got back..i was like..ehhh whatevers..that happens every year..i get home, get ready for the gym and before i leave i ask my mom

me: "umm, hey i'm going to wipe off my ashes okay mom?"
mom: "noooooo, just keep it on chris, everyone else will have theirs too"
me: "fine!!!! it's going to get wiped away anyways w/ my sweat!"

haha, such a brat i am..so yah, right before i get into the gym i make sure my bangs are kinda covering the ashes so that i don't get those weird stares..i have no idea why i was so embarassed to have them at the gym but not at work..so i hop on the treadmill and as i'm running i start laughing at myself..duuuuuuuude i'm so stupid. i look around..of course i don't see ashes on anyone else..but why should i even care if people stare at me? haha, it's not like i don't already stand out at this gym..i'm like one of the 10 or so asian people amongst this crowd of caucasians anyways..how are ashes on my forehead going to change that? so yah, that's when the epiphany struck me that i shouldn't even care..and i just laughed it all off..i didn't even bother to wipe off the sweat on my forehead so as not to ruin the ashes..i wonder if i had black streaks running down my face from them though..hahah that'd be funny..so yah, that's my moment of weakness/shallowness/stupidity..that was all brought to light during my run..does that make me a terrible person?..hmm..i hope not..

so this weekend we're getting ready to take out my older sister for her bachelorette partay in vegas baby..yahooooo..i'm excited..my first bachelorette party..although i think i may find it a bit weird to see guy/girl strippers all up on her..she's my sister..c'mon now!..haha...but alas, it should be all good none-the-less..is that one word?..so yah, tomorrow night at 10pm we fly into vegas..and let the good times begin..muahahhahah..what happens in vegas stays in vegas right? riiiiiiiiiiiight...yeehawoohooyahooyippyky-yay?!!!..ha!..man i can't believe she's getting married already next week..it came up so freaking fast..